Week 9 ~ Seriously….. Ready to Quit

Yep.

For the past 3 weeks I have been reading, reciting, thinking, and trying to “Greet this day with love in my heart”.

Scroll 2 in The Greatest Salesman by Og Mandino. See my last post to read it in its entirety.

Why is this so hard. Not like I have a reason to hate. But the programming of past disappointments, past hurts, past regret, past failings….. is just too much right now. I suppose that is why I really am needing this and struggling  with it.

This old blueprint that I really want to release is so deep and stuck inside me. I am struggling with it moment to moment.

I seriously am tired and so over with feeling like I am chasing something that just will never be.

And yet the last sentence of the scroll:

I will greet this day with love, and I will succeed

is haunting me to stay the course. Wake up one more day and give it a go.

This IS the reason I won’t quit. After all….. I always keep my promises.

 

Week 8 ~ I Greet This Day With Love In My Heart

 

Still working on it…. I persist until I succeed.

 

The Scroll Marked 2:  I will greet this day with love in my heart   Author: Og Mandino
 
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
 
For this is the greatest secret of success in all ventures. Muscle can split a shield and even destroy life but only the unseen power of love can open the hearts of men and until I master this art I will remain no more than a peddler in the market place. I will make love my greatest weapon and none on whom I call can defend against its force.
 
My reasoning they may counter; my speech they may distrust; my apparel they may disapprove; my face they may reject; and even my bargains may cause them suspicion; yet my love will melt all hearts liken to the sun whose rays soften the coldest clay.
 
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
 
And how will I do this? Henceforth will I look on all things with love and I will be born again. I will love the sun for it warms my bones; yet I will love the rain for it cleanses my spirit. I will love the light for it shows me the way; yet I will love the darkness for it shows me the stars. I will welcome happiness for it enlarges my heart; yet I will endure sadness for it opens my soul. I will acknowledge rewards for they are my due; yet I will welcome obstacles for they are my challenge.
 
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
 
And how will I speak? I will laud mine enemies and they will become friends; I will encourage my friends and they will become brothers. Always will I dig for reasons to applaud; never will I scratch for excuses to gossip. When I am tempted to criticize I will bite on my tongue; when I am moved to praise I will shout from the roofs.
 
Is it not so that birds, the wind, the sea and all nature speaks with the music of praise for their creator? Cannot I speak with the same music to his children? Henceforth will I remember this secret and it will change my life.
 
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
 
And how will I act? I will love all manners of men for each has qualities to be admired even though they be hidden. With love I will tear down the wall of suspicion and hate which they have built round their hearts and in its place will I build bridges so that my love may enter their souls.
 
I will love the ambitious for they can inspire me! I will love the failures for they can teach me. I will love the kings for they are but human; I will love the meek for they are divine. I will love the richfor they are yet lonely; I will love the poor for they are so many. I will love the young for the faith they hold; I will love the beautiful for their eyes of sadness; I will love the ugly for their souls of peace.
 
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
 
But how will I react to the actions of others? With love. For just as love is my weapon to open the hearts of men, love is also my shield to repulse the arrows of hate and the spears of anger. Adversity and discouragement will beat against my new shield and become as the softest of rains. My shield will protect me in the market place and sustain me when I am alone. It will uplift me in moments of despair yet it will calm me in time of exultation. It will become stronger and more protective with use until one day I will cast it aside and walk unencumbered among all manners of men and, when I do, my name will be raised high on the pyramid of life.
 
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
 
And how will I confront each whom I meet? In only one way. In silence and to myself I will address him and say I Love You. Though spoken in silence these words will shine in my eyes, unwrinkled my brow, bring a smile to my lips, and echo in my voice; and his heart will be opened. And who is there who will say nay to my goods when his heart feels my love?
 
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
 
And most of all I will love myself. For when I do I will zealously inspect all things which enter my body, my mind, my soul, and my heart. Never will I overindulge the requests of my flesh, rather I will cherish my body with cleanliness and moderation. Never will I allow my mind to be attracted to evil and despair, rather I will uplift it with the knowledge and wisdom of the ages. Never will I allow my soul to become complacent and satisfied, rather I will feed it with meditation and prayer. Never will I allow my heart to become small and bitter, rather I will share it and it will grow and warm the earth.
 
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
 
Henceforth will I love all mankind. From this moment all hate is let from my veins for I have not time to hate, only time to love. From this moment I take the first step required to become a man among men. With love I will increase my sales a hundredfold and become a great salesman. If I have no other qualities I can succeed with love alone. Without it I will fail though I possess all the knowledge and skills of the world.
 
I will greet this day with love, and I will succeed.

 

Week 7 ~ Forgiveness… Love… Starting Over…

Forgiveness….. Love……. Starting Over……  I used to be a very hard, mean, and unhappy person. I was covered with alot of cement. I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted.

 Almost 20 years of diligent personal development later…. I feel I’m getting a grasp on it all.
Lucky for you if you were born happy and knowing what you want out of life! And yet I wouldn’t be who I am now.
So this week we started Scroll 2 in Og….
I greet this day with love in my heart. And how will I do this? Henceforth I look on all things with love and I am born again.
To see the good in everything. To choose to focus on what I want. To develop and practice habits that support who I am and what I want out of life.
And mostly, when I fall short…. to forgive myself. Not waiting till the need to forgive someone else…. that is pointless as I see it.
Forgiving myself for having the thought.
Forgiving myself for falling into the negative.
Forgiving myself for doing something other than my personal best.
And then rise up and move forward back into action they way I choose. The best version of me based on what I want out of life.
This song Rise Up sung by Andra Day hit me hard today. Not just because of the video story…. but because of my realization that forgiveness is something I do for me. Something I must do on a regular basis to rise up and get back on track with life.
Rise Up
You’re broken down and tired
Of living life on a merry go round
And you can’t find the fighter
But I see it in you so we gonna walk it out
And move mountains
We gonna walk it out
And move mountains
And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
And I’ll rise up
High like the waves
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousands times again
For you
For you
For you
For you
When the silence isn’t quiet
And it feels like it’s getting hard to breathe
And I know you feel like dying
But I promise we’ll take the world to its feet
And move mountains
We’ll take it to its feet
And move mountains
And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
For you
For you
For you
For you
All we need, all we need is hope
And for that we have each other
And for that we have each other
We will rise
We will rise
We’ll rise, oh oh
We’ll rise
I’ll rise up
Rise like the day
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I will rise a thousands times again
And we’ll rise up
Rise like the waves
We’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
We’ll rise up
And we’ll do it a thousands times again
For you oh oh oh oh oh

Week 6 ~ Cement Falling Off In Boulders

We started the course learning the story of the Golden Buddha…… The legend of the town was that they covered their Golden Buddha with cement to prevent it from looking valuable and being stolen while at war. The Cement stayed on for several generations til everyone in the town forgot about its beauty and value.

Until one day a young student knelt at the Buddhas feet at prayer and noticed that part of the outer layer chipped off and a gleaming golden Buddha was underneath.

This brought the townspeople to the Buddha and they worked together to remove the cement to allow the beauty shine again.

Of course true or not…. it is a metaphor for our life and chipping away the old beliefs and fears aka the old blueprint…. to allow our truth and inner desire to come forth and shine as it is meant to.

The last 2 weeks I spent in Las Vegas. I did my readings most days. I attended 1 of the 2 class webinars live…. watching the 2nd one on replay.

So I did the work…. but not 100%.

Today….. I go to my 2nd personal training session since returning from Las Vegas and have this experience:

Kicking life up several notches. It’s the season to put in the work and do what others won’t so I can have what others don’t. Major realization today in my workout with my ever entrusted trainer…. how I think I’m doing my best and in reality was stopping just short of what I was really capable of. Interesting. In that moment of supersetting my arm workout with weights heavier than I have ever lifted.,. I was stopping short of the number of reps my trainer asked me to do. I was fearful of dropping the weights and injuring myself. Trainer says “I know you can do this. You got this” I allowed myself to ignore the fear and do it anyway. And I did it. With weights heavier and more reps than ever before. In that moment, someone else believed in me more that I believed in myself. And I went thru the fear anyway and found a new me in the other side. #stayfocused #believeyoucan #gothereanyways

I am finding this week that despite my less than 100% follow through on my daily readings….. cement is falling off in large chunks! My thoughts are even more focused and positive. I’m actually looking forward to my prospecting where just 2 weeks ago I was fearful, unsure, and avoiding.

But the biggest ah-ha was the one from the workout.

I can give so much more effort even when I think I am doing my 100%.

Time to kick it up several notches….. if I am experiencing results with this level of effort…. I AM REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THE RESULTS I WILL ACCOMPLISH WHEN I DO MY BEST.