It’s been a very interesting week last week. My concept of who I have been vs who I am working on becoming has become alarmingly disconnected.

It all began as a discussion around Sacrifice with my mastermind partner. What is it that we needed to give up, let go, dissolve that is holding us back from the life we truly want?

My participant tribe of 10 people currently going through the Masterkeys Class are writing and rewriting and rewriting their DMP’s (Definite Major Purpose statement) to fine tune it into EXACTLY what they are impressing into their subconscious to create their dream life- their dharma.

This means, for the past 3 weeks now, I have been reading these DMP’s and all the revisions they have done, in guiding them to get it specific, detailed, and with emotion. And a common theme with them all has been this topic of SACRIFICE. So…… no wonder my subconscious is working overtime on my own sacrifice, right? #OfCourse.

Anyways…. back to the story.

As my mastermind partner and I are deep in thoughtful discussion about this…. it starts to become apparent that there is actually several key things coming together as a “perfect storm”

It’s really not just about sacrifice. Its also about what Gay Hendricks refers to in his book “The Big Leap”…. the Upper Limit problem. The Upper Limit being that “zone of genius” where time disappears. That ZONE where you would choose to do whatever that “thing” is in trade of anything else….. THAT zone would TRULY be “oxygen for your soul”. You know what I mean???

But there is something there…. a barrier…. that when bumped up against, we shrink back down into a comfort zone of familiarity. Even if it isn’t what we want.

And that’s the payoff…. we fear the risk of being seen, because we either feel fundamentally flawed in some way, or fear being rejected, or maybe fear of success being “too hard”, or maybe even afraid of shining our inner light so bright- that it would cause someone else to look or feel bad. So we shrink back. Back into the comfort zone…….

Which I just realized…. isn’t the “comfort zone” really the “DISCOMFORT ZONE”????? We dont want to be there….. deep down inside we really want to be over there instead!

But the payoff is…. we get to escape criticism or being ostracized. We get to remain anonymous and fit into the bland life we so desperately want to change.

So sacrifice……………………………….. I am sacrificing being fearful of playing small and therefore alowing myself to be SEEN. Which means I follow my heart and intuition. It also means I stand my ground in my opinion. I do my best instead of monitoring myself so that I fit in and fear not being accepted.

I am living my fullness with complete abandon to the opinions of others.

I am staying focused on ME and what I want. Because then I can be the BEST ME to give my talent to others.

OK….. We all know the old saying “If you want to know if you REALLY know something…. go teach it”.

I don’t know who said that or some version of it but I’m sure feeling it this week.

As the DMP’s come rolling in from my 10 tribe members, I remember back to the years I was a participant and writing and re-writing my DMP to get it as crystal clear as glass and specific and robust with detail and feeling…. all under 400 words.

And now…. I sure have a basket full of empathy for the guides that helped me!

I’ll tell you though…. This week sure has caused me to look at my own DMP with much more scrutiny as I am now “guiding” participants. Its good. Refining the vision. Sharpening the saw. Learning at a whole new level.

I would think that after 3 years of taking this course and seriously doing the work….. that it would be a no brainer for me to choose my PPN’s…. personal pivitol needs.

In the exercise we do in class to discover the 2 out of 7 needs that are our inner most driving force behind what we want and who we are…. I find it fascinating to do every year.

I really do think that the process is initially clouded with the life circumstance in the moment. Like the 1st year I took the Masterkeys…. 2016, I was just finishing chemo and radiation treatments. So of course, True Health was in my top 2.

And the next year, as all those medical bills were present….. Liberty seemed to be my focus. Having enough $$$$$ to do what I want whenever, for as long as I wanted.

Could it be possible, that even this simple exercise of claiming our PPN’s are so clouded in cement of old, incorrect beliefs of ourselves that we unknowingly take on is also the cement on the Golden Buddha? I think so.

So its been interesting in 2018 and now 2019 as my life begins to come back to an even keel I find that there is a sense of peace around this whole idea of personal pivitol needs. I’m finding that my focus now is not so different than when I was young, healthy, and not much of an adult care in the world.

True Health and Recognition for Creative Expression.