Week 1- MasterKeys 2020

I decided very last minute before the deadline to apply for the MasterKeys Mastermind for my 5th round. I’m nervous and excited all at once.

I know what to expect… maybe good, and maybe not. I really want to do this session with a “beginners mind” this time.

A friend asked me if I feel like I’m going around in a circle with participating every year. No… It feels more like a spiral. Because everytime I go through another season of the Masterkeys, I feel that all I am learning and all the changing or critical habits that are happening are compounding upon itself in remaking ME into a much better, on task, happier, and more productive person—- Who I like 🙂

So what will be different this time?

I’ve had a lot of ah-ha’s this past year that have shown me that I live the best version of me when I am in continual growth mode with accountability.

Last year- 2019 I was a guide. My responsibility was to help those going through the mastermind session with their work and study. It was intense. I learned ALOT. I enjoyed it. BUT I didn’t do MY work. And it showed.

Gradually my thoughts returned to a negativity bias. I was increasingly unhappy. I had 2 major surgeries and a back injury that I spent most of December through August recovering from. No physical activity- exercise, taekwondo, running, yoga, swimming (all my passion). No outdoor summer activity. I was limited to sitting in a chair and using a walker.

SO… what will be different this time is that I realized my soul learning in this life is of mastery of my inner power… my mindset and thoughts.

Internal discipline is a nice and concise explanation.

I have alot of goals to accomplish yet…. building a business, returning to health and fitness, putting aside money for a legacy to my children and grandchildren.

Through this past almost year of recovery my biggest ah-ha is I MUST master my mindset.

A few quotes that stood out to me in this week’s reading of The Masterkey System:

1: That much gathers more is true on every plane of existence, and that loss leads to greater loss is equally true.

It is great to grow into more of the person I desire to be… more integrity, more success, more happy, more health. But when I stop purposefully growing, it stops and even reverses all results gained.

Lesson: Don’t stop growing.

23: It is the coordination of these two centers of our being and the understanding of their functions which is the great secret of life. With this knowledge, we can bring the objective and subjective minds into conscious cooperation and thus coordinate the finite and the infinite. Our future is entirely within our own control; it is not at the mercy of any capricious or uncertain external power.

Lesson: I have the power. Internal power. I have all I need to make the changes I want to be the person I want to be. BE TRUE TO ME.

And this:

36: This system will bring you into a realization of power which will be yours when you understand this relation between the world without and the world within. The world within is the CAUSE, the world without the EFFECT; to change the effect you must change the cause.

Lesson: I must do the change I desire.

These are my intentions for this session:

  • Stay in growth
  • Be true to me
  • Do the work

Week 5 Masterkeys 2019 NO OPINION

Oh boy!!! This week has really been hard! But WAIT————— THAT”S AN OPINION.

Why is it when I choose to focus on something….. I see, hear, think, speak it Oh yeah, I’m creating my reality through my focus and my thoughts.


So tell me to NOT give an opinion…… and what happens? All I seem to experience is all those opinions I’m thinking and saying.

OK, Just had to get that rant off.

Carry on.

Week 4 Masterkeys 2019 Sacrifice

It’s been a very interesting week last week. My concept of who I have been vs who I am working on becoming has become alarmingly disconnected.

It all began as a discussion around Sacrifice with my mastermind partner. What is it that we needed to give up, let go, dissolve that is holding us back from the life we truly want?

My participant tribe of 10 people currently going through the Masterkeys Class are writing and rewriting and rewriting their DMP’s (Definite Major Purpose statement) to fine tune it into EXACTLY what they are impressing into their subconscious to create their dream life- their dharma.

This means, for the past 3 weeks now, I have been reading these DMP’s and all the revisions they have done, in guiding them to get it specific, detailed, and with emotion. And a common theme with them all has been this topic of SACRIFICE. So…… no wonder my subconscious is working overtime on my own sacrifice, right? #OfCourse.

Anyways…. back to the story.

As my mastermind partner and I are deep in thoughtful discussion about this…. it starts to become apparent that there is actually several key things coming together as a “perfect storm”

It’s really not just about sacrifice. Its also about what Gay Hendricks refers to in his book “The Big Leap”…. the Upper Limit problem. The Upper Limit being that “zone of genius” where time disappears. That ZONE where you would choose to do whatever that “thing” is in trade of anything else….. THAT zone would TRULY be “oxygen for your soul”. You know what I mean???

But there is something there…. a barrier…. that when bumped up against, we shrink back down into a comfort zone of familiarity. Even if it isn’t what we want.

And that’s the payoff…. we fear the risk of being seen, because we either feel fundamentally flawed in some way, or fear being rejected, or maybe fear of success being “too hard”, or maybe even afraid of shining our inner light so bright- that it would cause someone else to look or feel bad. So we shrink back. Back into the comfort zone…….

Which I just realized…. isn’t the “comfort zone” really the “DISCOMFORT ZONE”????? We dont want to be there….. deep down inside we really want to be over there instead!

But the payoff is…. we get to escape criticism or being ostracized. We get to remain anonymous and fit into the bland life we so desperately want to change.

So sacrifice……………………………….. I am sacrificing being fearful of playing small and therefore alowing myself to be SEEN. Which means I follow my heart and intuition. It also means I stand my ground in my opinion. I do my best instead of monitoring myself so that I fit in and fear not being accepted.

I am living my fullness with complete abandon to the opinions of others.

I am staying focused on ME and what I want. Because then I can be the BEST ME to give my talent to others.

Week 3 Masterkeys 2019 Clarity

OK….. We all know the old saying “If you want to know if you REALLY know something…. go teach it”.

I don’t know who said that or some version of it but I’m sure feeling it this week.

As the DMP’s come rolling in from my 10 tribe members, I remember back to the years I was a participant and writing and re-writing my DMP to get it as crystal clear as glass and specific and robust with detail and feeling…. all under 400 words.

And now…. I sure have a basket full of empathy for the guides that helped me!

I’ll tell you though…. This week sure has caused me to look at my own DMP with much more scrutiny as I am now “guiding” participants. Its good. Refining the vision. Sharpening the saw. Learning at a whole new level.

Week 2 Masterkeys 2019 Personal Pivitol Needs

I would think that after 3 years of taking this course and seriously doing the work….. that it would be a no brainer for me to choose my PPN’s…. personal pivitol needs.

In the exercise we do in class to discover the 2 out of 7 needs that are our inner most driving force behind what we want and who we are…. I find it fascinating to do every year.

I really do think that the process is initially clouded with the life circumstance in the moment. Like the 1st year I took the Masterkeys…. 2016, I was just finishing chemo and radiation treatments. So of course, True Health was in my top 2.

And the next year, as all those medical bills were present….. Liberty seemed to be my focus. Having enough $$$$$ to do what I want whenever, for as long as I wanted.

Could it be possible, that even this simple exercise of claiming our PPN’s are so clouded in cement of old, incorrect beliefs of ourselves that we unknowingly take on is also the cement on the Golden Buddha? I think so.

So its been interesting in 2018 and now 2019 as my life begins to come back to an even keel I find that there is a sense of peace around this whole idea of personal pivitol needs. I’m finding that my focus now is not so different than when I was young, healthy, and not much of an adult care in the world.

True Health and Recognition for Creative Expression.

Week 1 Masterkeys 2019

Well, well. Here I am embarking on my fourth round of masterminding with an amazing group of people. This time I’m in a very different place.

No longer is it all about me and the changes I want to make in and for myself.

Don’t get me wrong…. I’m still always working on growing my character and my abilities.

But this time…… mmmm…… really got the nudge to make it about something bigger than me. Reaching out and being in service to others.

So, today I begin a new life. No longer playing small and invisible. I am seen. I am authentically me. I am here to help others.

Today, I begin again…. only this time as a guide for our mastermind.

I am choosing to step into the light and allow myself to make it all about others, because I know I will grow into my next level of me.

Enjoy Jim Carrey’s video above. It says so much… I am so grateful for this journey.

Week 20 ~ 2018 A Blueprint Discovery

Wow! Week 20 has been a mind blower for me!

I have always had a difficult time in building and maintaining relationships- both friends and business.

For as long as I can remember, I have held myself back from interacting with others in fear that I would not be liked, not be accepted, even ridiculed.

I can go into a long and probably boring story as to why I think I am that way… including all the details of what happened when, and by whom. But I’ll spare you the details.

Besides, it really doesn’t matter to anyone…. except to me.

And honestly…. it really doesn’t matter to me other than it was nice to understand how it happened.

But getting back to the inability to create and maintain relationships of all kinds… it has been absolutely CRIPPLING for me. Especially as I try for the millionth time to build a business. Until today.

I got it.

My mastermind group had a class last Sunday on using anger/ sadness, fear, hurt, guilt, and unworthiness as TOOLS for self growth.

Yes, tools.

In the past I had been taught and coached to let those feelings go…. forgive…. move on…. or heaven forbid…. lets go down that rabbit hole!

I chased that rabbit for decades.

Anyways, today I was in my thinking time (I set aside 15-45 minutes/day to sit and think about issues I am struggling with) I had a flash of insight about my struggle with attending networking meetings to build my business. Of course it is all wrapped around my thoughts of not being able to build relationships.

It occurred to me that the emotions that keep me from seeking out business relationships is because I feel so inferior and unworthy of the persons time and attention. Stupid, right?

I go into a circle of emotion that starts with unworthiness… moves to hurt… culminates in anger and sadness… and turns into fear.

Once I reach the fear emotion… which at this point in my life happens real fast, its game over because that emotion stops me from doing income generating activity. Then, when the income generating activity stops… a heavy dose of guilt sets in.

Fear and guilt keep me at a standstill.

My insight was of that circular pattern. It’s a blueprint! Its a frickin HABIT.

So what I now realize is that because it is a habit…. and I SEE IT…. I can change it.

My game plan is to create a “Franklin Makeover” type template for the emotions of unworthiness, anger/ sadness, hurt, fear, and guilt.

I am making a 3×5 card with the emotions written down the left side, and the days of the week across the top.

For each day I will put a hashmark in the space of each of those emotions… AND when I feel them and mark it down, I will recite my self motivator of:


The person I intend to become would then use my will power of thought to use the Law of Substitution to focus on what I want and take the action that the new me would do.

I can do this.

I always keep my promises.

Week 16 ~ 2018 Kindness

I love this progression of the Franklin Makeover! In 2016 and 2017 I think I experienced some of the biggest ah’has and awarenesses about myself thru the makeover. 2018 go around is proving true again.

In this week of observing, performing, and tallying up acts of kindness of myself and others has been HARD for me.

Not anything I want to get into detail at this time…. however what my learning was… just tonight…. at the end of the week long exercise…. is I am not being kind to myself.

I’m not meaning in the way of delusion where I need to be selfish in kindness to myself…. but that I was having difficulty in seeing and doing kindness for others. So in fact… being selfishly unkind.

I don’t know if that makes sense to you. It does to me.

And because of it, I was downright unkind to myself. I allowed myself to dwell on negative. I allowed myself to feel pity about the things I have not done, fell short of, and just outright rebelled.

And I do recognize NOW how by not allowing myself to see the kindness in myself…. I could not see it in and for others.

I learned tonight that seeing kindness in others and doing random acts of kindness for others is in fact creating abundance. And who doesn’t want abundance? Why choose the Law of Decline over the Law of Growth?

Even when the choice is unconscious… to the side I don’t want…. finally seeing the consequence and becoming aware of my unconscious choice is a wonderful learning.

And I am grateful.

Week 14 ~ 2018 Thankyous

I love this time of year!

All that is metaphorically represented between Winter Solstice, Christmas and the New Year is so inspiring to me.

I have never been happier or more grateful than at this point in my life.

I know that I wouldn’t have gotten to this place without the help, guidance, and love of some very key people.

Thank you my loving husband Jon of 38 years of marriage, our children Brittany, Ashley, Patrick, Patrick’s fiancée Brittney and our amazing twin grandsons Bentley and Karter.

Thank you Davene and Mark Januszewski and the MKMMA crew for your teachings and loving kick in the pants at a point I needed it most.

And thank you God- Universal Spirit- Life- Truth for all there is and giving us humans the gift of life and the use of our will for our thoughts.

Merry Christmas

Week 13 ~ 2018 Interesting Dream

This week I really believe that my subconscious mind is being rewritten in lightening speed!
I truly believe that my dreams hold a lot of insight into my beliefs, fears, dreams and hope that is buried in my subconscious mind.

Many dreams I have are complex with lots of scenes and stories all running at the same time. Most of them revolve around living with large groups of people all in the same building…. kind of like what I imagine a commune would be like.

This one was very different.

Let me back up.

This past 4 months I have been diving deep into the study of natural law and personal development, even more than my participation in my yearly Masterkeys Mastermind group.

Since September of this year, I have been an active member of the MasterKeys Mastermind…. growing myself and my business with learning to create new habits that support reaching the goals and dreams I have established for myself. This group meets weekly on Sundays for 3 hours….. plus approx. an hour of homework daily.

I have also chosen to be a part of a biweekly smaller mastermind group with some of the same people, intensely studying Wallace Wattles trilogy: The Science of Getting Rich, The Science of Being Great, and The Science of Being Well.

Both groups require full attention and intense study between meetings as I am actively participating at the meetings and not sitting back as if in lecture style.

Anyways…. through all this I know I am changing my course of direction in my life at my cellular level… and doing it fast.

Back to my dream-

I had left on my own…. without telling anyone. Just checked out and walked away from my life. I was alone. Not even Jon (my husband) was with me.
I remember walking and walking and walking for what seemed days. I walked through cities, in the forest, and seemed to be invisible because the people I walked past didn’t appear to acknowledge that I was there.

It was a long dream, and I must have been away from my life for weeks. No responsibilities…. no work….. no fear…. no deadlines…. just walking, and alone.

I remember walking past many cities…. and they were off in the distance. I could see the skyline of all the buildings with the sky and foreground- as if I was looking through a camera from very far away with a loooooong lens. And yet…. I could see the detail of the people walking down the streets.
I then walked on a beautiful deserted beach. The sand was fine and warm. The waves crashing along my feet and looking to my right at the sky in a beautiful firey sunset that lit the entire sky to red and orange.

It was so peaceful.

Suddenly I was back to my life… and Jon was telling me that it was ok that I was gone for 3 weeks… and that nobody missed me.

Everything was different. I didn’t recognize my life. There were people there that I apparently had known… yet I did not know them.

And then I woke up.

This dream stayed with me for days. The detail was intense. I felt peaceful about it and I KNOW it was my mind telling me that I am changing my life story at its cellular level.

Doesn’t matter to me about your opinion about this dream.

I know what it means to me.

What is cool about this dream is that it was SO DIFFERENT from all the dreams I have had in my life. And that the detail is so vivid in my memory…. LIKE I WAS REALLY DOING EVERYTHING…. not dreaming.

It is cool to know how powerful our minds are…. and how simple it is to actually make change in life to my dreams….. and not just wish my dreams to come true.

Week 12 ~ 2018 Commitment & Focus

I have had so many ah’ha’s and awarenesses this week that have made me grown up.

Seriously… hitting the big 6-0 in March and found myself thinking in a different paradigm that I can only attribute to week 12 webinar for my mastermind group….
The Master Key Experience.

We had an exercise on last Sunday’s webinar that I have done in the previous 2 years, this year was profoundly different.

We tightened up and condensed our Definite Major Purpose (DMP) from around 400 words to a concise 1 sentence. This was a major feat in of itself as I spent several months investigating the recesses of my mind of desires to really decide what I wanted in the remaining life I have.

In the 400 word version it describes my ideal health, business, and life with 
emotionally rich descriptions. 

The one sentence boiled down to the most committed part:

“I AM A: confident and successful business builder and leader earning in excess of $500,000/ year residual income enthusiastically helping others in Melaleuca to do the same with the teachings of MasterKeyMastermind and Go90Grow.”

It feels right.

So during the webinar, we put it on pause…. and everyone went to a mirror. I then spent the next 50 minutes reciting my 1 sentence DMP out loud while looking into the mirror at myself.
Knowing that the rest of the participants were doing the same, I felt invigorated. 

My experience during this ran the gamut of 1st being hesitant and quiet as I tried to memorize and then recite while looking into my eyes… to confidently speaking the sentence and letting it flow off my tongue without restarts.
Somewhere in all that, my mind began to actually see myself and my life in the future… and what it is like having already achieved it.

Very Powerful!!

I will definitely use this tool for other beliefs I want to cement into my cells as truth!

Week 11 ~ 2018 Its been awhile……

It’s been a loooooonnnggg while since my last blog post.

I am NOT happy nor proud about that. Matter of fact I have a healthy massive dissatisfaction about that and I am ok with feeling that emotion for a bit.

You see…. I was well on to the road of developing some new habits and BAM! Subby sneaked in with the old blueprint and I followed.

And here is what I am noticing:

I am kinder to myself about getting back on track and doing it

I’m over all happier

I am really noticing some personality traits that I know are not serving me like…. putting up walls to going out and meeting people, following through and finishing things.

Today I recommit to my mkmma drills with enthusiasm because I know when I follow the plan…. life moves in the direction I WANT IT TO.



Week 6 ~ 2018 No Opinion


So I was looking back at my previous years of Master Key blogging and discovered that I was in Vegas during this week of the mastermind.

So funny… because I just returned from Vegas on Tuesday night.

This topic is a constant reminder for me….. I guess I have been very opinionated… and no so very aware of it.

Not something I’m proud of…. but I’m also not beating myself over the head about it anymore. Acknowledge the thought… it is there… then refocus on what I really want and move on.

Guess that last sentence sums up the whole learning for me. If I try to “catch myself” or if I make myself wrong for having the opinion, I end up feeling bad about myself and THAT thought and feeling sticks with me. And that doesn’t feel good, nor is it good for anyone.

So the biggie here is to acknowledge the thought. I am human. AND I can control my thought….so as soon as I recognize my thought is off course…. It is time to redirect the ship back to thinking about what I DO want.

Makes sense to me anyways!

Week 5 ~ 2018 Vacation

Yah….. Even tho I am vacationing in this week…. I am still doing my readings, my exercises, and keeping my promises.

Despite needing to watch the webby recording, my promise to this mastermind group and myself is constantly in my thoughts and focus. I am finding it easier to KEEP my focus and to keep the positive thoughts.

The readings and reciting my DMP, BPB are made easier with my mind permanently etched with “DO IT NOW”!!

BTW…. Anatelope Canyon…. OMG AWESOME! Bucket List item check off!


Week 4 ~ 2018 Give Up? Stay The Course? Which Way To Go?


Well, this is the week to either QUIT or RECOMMIT.

I know what’s in store. Yep, been down this road with this mastermind twice before. I know whats coming.

And, I STILL have thoughts about quitting. Just let go. Return to the old blueprint…. of course my subby is yelling!!! My mind is rationalizing…. sure would be easier to just stop all this. No more hours of homework. No more Sundays in front of my computer. No more reading the passages that are indelibly etched into my mind.


I already see the signs of moving even closer to my dream and my definite major purpose. Its almost dizzing, intoxicating…. the changes that are happening at breakneck speed that can only indicate I am on the right path.

Yep… recommitting.

Week 3 ~ 2018 Joy vs Happiness

This topic has been on my mind a lot this week.

The question of “Why am I not happy” has been in my thoughts…. now bear with me as I dissect this!

Just the realization of the nature of assuming I am “not” happy already is great cause for concern. What if I really am happy and just don’t realize it? Then its the “addiction to the peptides of sadness”???

Or even going into the conversation of “I’ll be happy when…” I know better than that. It’s moving the goal posts of happiness that is my chase.

I stumbled upon this video by Matthew McConaughey that really summed up what I was twisting around in my head…… its all a choice.

But JOY just feels different than happiness…. I agree with him…. happiness is a destination and joy is the process.

I like that. But don’t believe what I have to say on it…. watch Matthew’s video for yourself and you think on it. You decide what it means for you.

Week 2 ~ 2018 Letting Go Of The Old Story Of Why “I Can’t”


This is round 3 for me in this wonderful global mastermind…. And I am back for MORE.

The work is tough… glorious… time consuming… and WORTH IT.

Personal growth, in my humble opinion, should never be “a thing” you spend some time on and then stop.

We are what we think about…. ALL THE TIME! Be the careful “guardsman at the gate” of your mind because it directly impresses and influences your subconscious mind where all action comes from. Not taking action? Taking wrong action? Check in with the results you are currently getting and investigate your inner mind with what you are knowing AND unknowingly filling it with!

OK OK OK…. I just wrote that last paragraph all in the 3rd party “you” tense….. and really it is meant to be ME speaking to ME.!!! hahaha CAUGHT!!!

Anyways…. this is a great video on our thoughts….

Tell me what YOU think about it!



Week 1 ~ 2018 Masterkeys Mastermind 3.0

Here I go again…. diving deep into my personal development with my mastermind group.  Even with this being my 3rd round…. I am excited and ready for the work.

It is amazing how each time I have learned and grown far beyond what I thought was capable.

Talking about thought…. I realize now more than ever the power and need for being the diligent guardsman at the gate…. always working on controlling my thought to be of that WHICH I WANT ONLY!!!!

My take aways this week:

  1. Accept that I will fall back and catch myself right away.
  2. Adjust right in the moment…. changing my thought to be focused on what I want… where I want to go… do… etc.
  3. Let go of the ego power of hanging onto a fear, resentment, or made up story about what just happened.
  5. Know CLEARLY what I want… of course how could I control my thought to what I want if I am not crystal clear in my definite chief aim.
  6. Always come from a mindset of gratitude and thinking more life to all.
  7. DO THE WORK…. the inner mind thought work.

Part of deciding and getting clear on my Definite Major Purpose (DMP) I needed to decide on what I would sacrifice to be able to achieve it.

In the past it was things I did… or had…. This time around I realized that the sacrifices needed to be thoughts…

So I am sacrificing thoughts and feelings of resentment and anger….. and of quitting or giving up.

I always keep my promises.

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One Life

Wow! This video by Gary Vee hit home with me…..

I’m 59 years old and just now allowing myself to become honest with myself about who/ what I want to be when I grow up. ?

And seriously….. this is really true. I allowed myself to become a lot of things that others wanted for me… and not what is really in my heart.

Regret IS poison….. Ironic how I had breast cancer and the fast growing tumor was right above my heart. No coincidence I believe.

My regret was “eating” away at me…. in my heart space.

I’m so grateful I found an amazing group of people who have similar beliefs as me and who also wanted massive change in their life. AND most of all… they are ready to take action to make their desires happen. This is my mastermind group…. people of all ages, races, ethnicities, around the world that come together and support and learn together so we can make shit happen in our lives.

Curious about it? Think it might be right for you too? Message me and I’ll put you on the list for when we start up again in September!

Meanwhile…. don’t believe me… Listen to Gary Vee

Week 19 ~ 2017 Permission



As you might be able to see, I have missed 5 weeks of blog posting this time around. UPDATED!! went back and wrote my missing posts 🙂

I have no good excuses. I became slothful and undisciplined.

And yet, the time was not wasted. It was filled with building blocks of thought and realization that has started coming together in a way that is new for me.

I have been on a personal development path now for about 18 years. It started with Tony Robbins and walking across red hot coals. It was just the thing that worked for me to awaken from my hypnotic sleep of conformity. I guess I would have called myself a “sheeple” at that point in my life. You know the kind…. wrapped up in my own little world of following the Joneses and not thinking for myself.

Then in 2006 I happened upon the world of “Natural Laws”. The movie The Secret was released and it blew my mind wide open. It brought with it a whole rabbit hole of new thought. I was hooked. I read EVERYTHING I could on natural law. I sought out every mentor and spent a chunk $$$$ studying with them….. Esther Hicks, Bob Proctor, David Neagle…….. and I learned and evolved along the way with each of them.

My mind was getting more clear. I was finding it easier to just. be. happy. I was discovering me. I was realizing the true effect my thoughts and words were having on my reality…. not the other way around.

And still… despite those years of study and slowly changing my attitude and thoughts… purposeful manifestation of my goals and desires were still pretty much elusive. Yes, I found that I was alot more positive and careful with my thoughts… I still had this underlying internal conversation of “when I figure this out”, “what’s wrong with me that I can’t do this”, “what is the next book to read (seminar to go to, mentor to study) to find the missing link?”

What I have come to realize is that it IS all within me already. DUH you say.

By the doubting i continued in my internal dialog…. of needing to find an answer…. presupposes that I DIDN’T already know. Everything I kept telling myself was that I would take action when I finally understood what I needed to learn. That there were missing links I couldn’t find.

When all along I need to just believe I have what it takes… its ok to move forward without learning any more, and to give myself permission to be in action towards my goal even tho I feel like there is more to learn.

Seems so simplistic now…. and yet something shifted.

No one is ready for a thing until he believes he can acquire it.  Napoleon Hill (Think and Grow Rich, 1938)

Maybe its the belief. or the permission I granted to myself to go ahead.

Doesn’t matter… just ready to move forward now.

Week 16 ~ 2017 Controlled Thought


Exerpt form Haanel’s The Master Key System Part 16:

16. It is by the exercise of this power that we take our fate out of the hands of chance, and consciously make for ourselves the experiences which we desire, because when we consciously realize a condition, that condition will eventually manifest in our lives; it is therefore evident that in the last analysis thinking is the one great cause in life.

17. Therefore, to control thought is to control circumstances, conditions, environment, and destiny.

18. How then are we to control thought; what is the process? To think is to create a thought, but the result of the thought will depend upon its form, its quality and its vitality.

19. The form will depend upon the mental images from which it emanates; this will depend upon the depth of the impression, the predominance of the idea, the clarity of the vision, the boldness of the image.

20. The quality depends upon its substance, and this depends upon the material of which the mind is composed; if this material has been woven from thoughts of vigor, strength, courage, determination, the thought will possess these qualities.

21. And finally, the vitality depends upon the feeling with which the thought is impregnated. If the thought is constructive, it will possess vitality; it will have life, it will grow, develop, expand, it will be creative; it will attract to itself everything necessary for its complete development.

22. If the thought is destructive, it will have within itself the germ of its own dissolution; it will die, but in the process of dying, it will bring sickness, disease, and every other form of discord.

23. This we call evil, and when we bring it upon ourselves, some of us are disposed to attribute our difficulties to a Supreme Being, but this supreme being is simply Mind in equilibrium.

24. It is neither good nor bad, it simply is.

25. Our ability to differentiate it into form is our ability to manifest good or evil.

This chapter 16 has been a real excellent chapter for me to contemplate on. Controlled and focused thought is THE CAUSE for everything we experience as “reality”.

Week 15 ~ 2017 Letting Go Of Old Thoughts

Been questioning myself alot lately about why I believe in certain things. Or why I respond in that automatic way to some situation.

Like…. why did I always default to a feeling of scarcity when paying bills and looking at my bank account even tho there was enough in there?

Or why would I automatically be disgusted when a client was late for an appointment, or a prospect would stand me up without even a call or text or changing their mind?

I find that in questioning myself about these things, and staying an observer and recognizing when it is happening…. that a couple things begin to happen:

1. I am giving myself an ever so slight of a pause between reactions to think and choose

2. I am recognizing that my automatic response isn’t the response I wish to choose

3. I am seeing the connection between the disempowering thought and creation of my reality

4. I challenge myself to make a new thought, decision, which I can groom into a new habit to follow the type of person I prefer to be and already see myself as being

5. I am alot more tolerant of others

It’s quite interesting the power of thought…. and creation of outward results.

Even in the instance of feeling scarcity/ lack when looking at my checkbook when paying bills…. even though there “is enough” I have been seeing the downward trend of my savings. I know this is not a coincidence. I know I am creating “not enough” because of my feeling of not enough.

Even that thought has translated into my self confidence of not enough.

And really I am good with never finding out why or how that belief was formed. I am seeing the need to reeducate my thinking to be of “enough”. And to recognize immediately when the old thought pops in and immediately reeducate the thought.

This is why I am persisting in my self development and staying the course with Master Keys… it is a simple structure if you are willing to do the work…. which can be easy if you choose to believe it is.

I choose to believe it is.


Week 14 ~ 2017 Gratitude

This last 2 weeks have been very awe inspiring as I hold myself true to following the required homework in MKMMA…. Master Keys.

I have been starting my day 1 hour earlier than I had in the past. After showering I make my breakfast, and as I eat… I do my readings and write my 3 gratitude cards and 1 journal card.

It is amazing how much peace and centeredness I feel. This alone is making it so easy to stay on the mental diet of seeing, thinking, and speaking only good.

I am also seeing characteristics in people that reflect the peace and happiness I feel.

This is very cool….. and I’m sticking with it 🙂

Week 13 ~ Lesson In Persistence ~ October Sky

My daughters and I decided to watch the movie October Sky this past week together as our homework for Master Keys.


Based on the true story of Homer H. Hickam, Jr., a coal miner’s son who was inspired by the launch of Sputnik 1 in 1957 to take up rocketry against his father’s wishes and eventually became a NASA engineer.

It seems as though my inner focus these past several weeks has been on persistence. And I am seeing that it really goes through phases…. 1st I was feeling stuck and unmotivated. Slightly confused also as I really wanted the results I had stated but was not motivated to do the work in November.

Then as we started Scroll 3 in December my motivation picked up and enthusiasm came back…. I know that the 3x/day reading of scroll 3…. I Persist Until I Succeed had much to do with that!

Now…. I am really recognizing that I am becoming “single eyed focused” in my thought and actions this past week…. letting go of a lot of “things”, obligations, and old blueprint thoughts that don’t support my Definite Major Purpose.

So as we watched the movie I got a good grasp on the 4 habits of persistence that we learn about and implement through Master Keys. This movie very clearly told the story… in a hero’s journey story line with all 4 habits.

Homer Hickam wanted to build a rocket that would fly into space.

He was surrounded by classmates, friends, his town, even his father who told him he couldn’t do it. Classmates made fun of him and called him names. His father told him that his choice of career would be to follow in HIS footsteps of being a coal miner.

But Homer kept his FAITH and ONE-EYED FOCUS on his dream…. his bliss…. his DMP…. definite major purpose- to build that rocket.

Homer had his heros journey call presented to him via the launch of Sputnik in 1957. He watched with inspiration as the Sputnik traveled across the evening sky and lit his heart on fire.

He sought out books about spaceship building… renewed interest in chemistry class as they found different combinations of chemicals that became explosive.

Through his ENTHUSIASM he attracted 3 other students to him that were HELPERS in manifesting a rocket that would fly. Even one of his teachers believed in him so much that she gave him a book on how to build rockets.

Along the way of his journey he had many challenges…. rockets built that didn’t fly…. exploded on the ground. People who accused him of stealing items to use in building the rockets, and even his father who became injured in a coal mining accident that ended up forcing Homer to drop out of school an go work in his fathers coal mine for a period of time.

You could see Homer’s inner light of enthusiasm virtually disappear over night while he was working in the coal mine.

Yet one day  he woke up…. he had his death and rebirth of transformation realizing that he was living his life for others instead of following his heart.

Through most of his journey he was able to keep a POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE which you could see rub off onto the 3 other students who were his helpers.

His PLAN OF ACTION was to keep trying…. keep building another rocket…. keep testing each one and keeping written documentation of how they were built… with what materials… and how long and high it flew.

Homer had several people as his mastermind partners: His 3 buddies that helped him build and test the rockets, Rocket scientist Wernher von Braun who was his major source of inspiration, a teacher who believed in him.

Finally, Homer and his buddies won the gold medal in the 1960 science fair which then allowed him to attend college. By 38 years old he was working for NASA making many contributions for our current day space travel.

Here is an awesome example of a young man who against all odds of breaking out of a generational blueprint of financial hardship, lack, and coal mining occupation…. broke out and followed his heart.

Despite negativity all around, what seemed like lack of resources to make it happen…. once he accepted his PERSONAL TRUTH and followed his heart…. kept the FAITH of one-eyed focus of his DMP…. he became at one with his purpose…. and it came true.






Week 12 ~ 2017 Persistence


firm or obstinate continuance in a course of action in spite of difficulty or opposition.

yep. I’m getting it. My outlook has become much more positive and happy. I’m keeping up with much more of the homework.

What is really cool is that I actually can feel that my new habits… mental diet, following the law of substitution, law of giving, looking for what is right, all this feels like it is really a part of me.

I like the above definition especially the part of “obstinate continuance” because truthfully for the past couple of months that’s exactly what it felt like. I felt very obstinate.

What I recognize is that it definitely was my subconscious old blueprint digging its heels in to try to rescue and save itself from the changes.

It is definitely getting easier and feeling much more aligned to me.

Week 11 ~ 2017 This Mountain Of Mine

Today I recommitted to doing The Sit.

After being on the webinar yesterday for the Go 90 Grow skills…. Mark J made a comment about the “pushback” of change and new habits really comes from the conscious mind not the subconscious. This was a lightbulb moment for me as I was believing that it was the other way around. And that I was thinking my intuition and subconscious was rebelling to things that were not right or aligned with who I am.

Now that I really think about it…. I get it. Subconscious only takes direction…. from the conscious. I know this. My conscious ego was getting in the way!!

And talk about those “inexplicable things”….. my week has been full of them!

I have been drawn to take a challenging trip of mountain climbing…. I want to experience the Skylodge Hotel in Peru’s Sacred Valley…. see a video of it here and another here.

I was drawn to watch a video made by my mentor and personal sponsor Dave Ulloa in my network marketing company not once… but 3 times… it is about his personal experience summitting Mount Kilimanjaro in Tanzania Africa. I was drawn to it as he speaks to having a “mission worth fighting for”. And of course its about a mountain. See it here

I have had this image as my facebook picture for the last several weeks…..


This is what I have been looking at- at my desk in my office: a postcard I picked up when at the MKMMA Live last May…. my favorite of the Napali Coast….. and TOTALLY UNAWARE TIL NOW… the screen saver I picked just 2 months ago of a girl running on the beach in front of MOUNTAINS….

ok…. more….. my dream board in my office…

This morning I woke an hour before my alarm was to go off… 5:30am. Wide awake…. just dreamt that I was watching my grandkids ( I love them soooo much…. my day STOPS when I am with them) and we were at an indoor park….. I looked over to where my purse was… and it was GONE. My wallet… credit cards…. cash…. GONE. And in the moment I woke up…. I heard Mark J’s voice loud and clear saying ” SUCCESS CONSCIOUSNESS”

I decided right then that it was time for me to see the good in this dream. It was time to WAKE UP.

So I started my day earlier than planned. Got out of bed, showered, ate breakfast, and enjoyed a beautiful short clip of Bethany Williams sitting amongst the beautiful mountains in Nepal with the simple line of “This morning I’m reminiscing of Nepal and the incredibly beautiful mountain scenery. #nepal #scenery” see it here


So…. I know what to do.

I get into my sit. It’s been a long time since I’ve done it. And my mind begins to wander… I decide to use the phrase “success consciousness” (and in Mark J’s voice) as a focus to keep me in my sit.

It starts to make sense…. what it all means.

My peptides are addicted to CHALLENGE. And as of lately negative challenge.

My personal trainer at the club said it to me twice last week…. “I see you like a challenge” and gave me more weights and reps…. and I rose to the challenge.

My life has revolved around 24 years of intense martial arts training………. challenge.

Working for many years in a hospital in a high risk setting of sick moms… delivering their sick babies.

I survived against all odds of a year fighting cancer…. chemo… surgery…. radiation…. recovery.

My husband and I survived financial loss of our business of 37 years.

We survived the loss of our house.

I have traveled the world and have had really cool experiences…. challenges….. martial arts training in South Korea 3 times. Staying in a Buddhist Temple to learn the culture. Hiking the inside of a crater of a dormant volcano. Hiking a rain forest. Snorkeling amongst jelly fish. Walking around Munich ALL NIGHT LONG at 15 years old without the ability to speak German and no map…. with a man who was to become my husband.

And then it hit me.

I DO like challenge. The kind that is fun and immediately gives me the desire to rise to the occasion and prove to myself that I can over come it…. accomplish it…. experience what many others don’t or choose not to.

So why do I repel from the challenge in my business? Fear…. Fear of rejection and being seen as so different. Fear of being looked at with judgement of my desire to rise successfully so far above others that some might think “against all odds”. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm….

I DO like challenge. It is what makes me come alive and makes life juicy. It’s the stories I reminisce about ALL. THE. TIME.

Soooooooo…. all these inexplicable things have helped me to see the gift in this for me….. I love challenges!!! AND IT IS TIME TO PUT THE SPECIALIZED KNOWLEDGE I NOW HAVE TO WORK AND CREATE THE CHALLENGES I WANT TO EXPERIENCE!

Week 10 ~ 2017 Don’t Quit = DO IT

These past couple of weeks I have been caught up in a lot of negativity and stinky thinking. And I am not going to dwell in that side of the story any more.

What I have really had a big insight about over these weeks is how much I need to work on my attitude and thoughts.

The mental diet has been started over and over this week…..  and I am more and more aware of my thoughts and how they are impacting my reality.

Only three days into Scroll 3 in The Greatest Salesman in the World… and I am loving this Scroll!

Actually… everything has boiled down to 2 most important things for me:

  1. monitor my thoughts continuously….. always being aware of how I am following the mental diet. Must keep all thoughts towards the good, positive, and uplifting.
  2. love myself. If I love myself… I love others and am following the mental diet easier.

I think Scroll 3 is my favorite so far!

Here is Og Mandino himself reading Scroll 3 🙂 Enjoy!


Week 9 ~ 2017 Seriously….. Ready to Quit


For the past 3 weeks I have been reading, reciting, thinking, and trying to “Greet this day with love in my heart”.

Scroll 2 in The Greatest Salesman by Og Mandino. See my last post to read it in its entirety.

Why is this so hard. Not like I have a reason to hate. But the programming of past disappointments, past hurts, past regret, past failings….. is just too much right now. I suppose that is why I really am needing this and struggling  with it.

This old blueprint that I really want to release is so deep and stuck inside me. I am struggling with it moment to moment.

I seriously am tired and so over with feeling like I am chasing something that just will never be.

And yet the last sentence of the scroll:

I will greet this day with love, and I will succeed

is haunting me to stay the course. Wake up one more day and give it a go.

This IS the reason I won’t quit. After all….. I always keep my promises.


Week 8 ~ 2017 I Greet This Day With Love In My Heart


Still working on it…. I persist until I succeed.


The Scroll Marked 2:  I will greet this day with love in my heart   Author: Og Mandino
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
For this is the greatest secret of success in all ventures. Muscle can split a shield and even destroy life but only the unseen power of love can open the hearts of men and until I master this art I will remain no more than a peddler in the market place. I will make love my greatest weapon and none on whom I call can defend against its force.
My reasoning they may counter; my speech they may distrust; my apparel they may disapprove; my face they may reject; and even my bargains may cause them suspicion; yet my love will melt all hearts liken to the sun whose rays soften the coldest clay.
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
And how will I do this? Henceforth will I look on all things with love and I will be born again. I will love the sun for it warms my bones; yet I will love the rain for it cleanses my spirit. I will love the light for it shows me the way; yet I will love the darkness for it shows me the stars. I will welcome happiness for it enlarges my heart; yet I will endure sadness for it opens my soul. I will acknowledge rewards for they are my due; yet I will welcome obstacles for they are my challenge.
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
And how will I speak? I will laud mine enemies and they will become friends; I will encourage my friends and they will become brothers. Always will I dig for reasons to applaud; never will I scratch for excuses to gossip. When I am tempted to criticize I will bite on my tongue; when I am moved to praise I will shout from the roofs.
Is it not so that birds, the wind, the sea and all nature speaks with the music of praise for their creator? Cannot I speak with the same music to his children? Henceforth will I remember this secret and it will change my life.
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
And how will I act? I will love all manners of men for each has qualities to be admired even though they be hidden. With love I will tear down the wall of suspicion and hate which they have built round their hearts and in its place will I build bridges so that my love may enter their souls.
I will love the ambitious for they can inspire me! I will love the failures for they can teach me. I will love the kings for they are but human; I will love the meek for they are divine. I will love the richfor they are yet lonely; I will love the poor for they are so many. I will love the young for the faith they hold; I will love the beautiful for their eyes of sadness; I will love the ugly for their souls of peace.
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
But how will I react to the actions of others? With love. For just as love is my weapon to open the hearts of men, love is also my shield to repulse the arrows of hate and the spears of anger. Adversity and discouragement will beat against my new shield and become as the softest of rains. My shield will protect me in the market place and sustain me when I am alone. It will uplift me in moments of despair yet it will calm me in time of exultation. It will become stronger and more protective with use until one day I will cast it aside and walk unencumbered among all manners of men and, when I do, my name will be raised high on the pyramid of life.
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
And how will I confront each whom I meet? In only one way. In silence and to myself I will address him and say I Love You. Though spoken in silence these words will shine in my eyes, unwrinkled my brow, bring a smile to my lips, and echo in my voice; and his heart will be opened. And who is there who will say nay to my goods when his heart feels my love?
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
And most of all I will love myself. For when I do I will zealously inspect all things which enter my body, my mind, my soul, and my heart. Never will I overindulge the requests of my flesh, rather I will cherish my body with cleanliness and moderation. Never will I allow my mind to be attracted to evil and despair, rather I will uplift it with the knowledge and wisdom of the ages. Never will I allow my soul to become complacent and satisfied, rather I will feed it with meditation and prayer. Never will I allow my heart to become small and bitter, rather I will share it and it will grow and warm the earth.
I will greet this day with love in my heart.
Henceforth will I love all mankind. From this moment all hate is let from my veins for I have not time to hate, only time to love. From this moment I take the first step required to become a man among men. With love I will increase my sales a hundredfold and become a great salesman. If I have no other qualities I can succeed with love alone. Without it I will fail though I possess all the knowledge and skills of the world.
I will greet this day with love, and I will succeed.


Week 7 ~ 2017 Forgiveness… Love… Starting Over…

Forgiveness….. Love……. Starting Over……  I used to be a very hard, mean, and unhappy person. I was covered with alot of cement. I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted.

 Almost 20 years of diligent personal development later…. I feel I’m getting a grasp on it all.
Lucky for you if you were born happy and knowing what you want out of life! And yet I wouldn’t be who I am now.
So this week we started Scroll 2 in Og….
I greet this day with love in my heart. And how will I do this? Henceforth I look on all things with love and I am born again.
To see the good in everything. To choose to focus on what I want. To develop and practice habits that support who I am and what I want out of life.
And mostly, when I fall short…. to forgive myself. Not waiting till the need to forgive someone else…. that is pointless as I see it.
Forgiving myself for having the thought.
Forgiving myself for falling into the negative.
Forgiving myself for doing something other than my personal best.
And then rise up and move forward back into action they way I choose. The best version of me based on what I want out of life.
This song Rise Up sung by Andra Day hit me hard today. Not just because of the video story…. but because of my realization that forgiveness is something I do for me. Something I must do on a regular basis to rise up and get back on track with life.
Rise Up
You’re broken down and tired
Of living life on a merry go round
And you can’t find the fighter
But I see it in you so we gonna walk it out
And move mountains
We gonna walk it out
And move mountains
And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
And I’ll rise up
High like the waves
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousands times again
For you
For you
For you
For you
When the silence isn’t quiet
And it feels like it’s getting hard to breathe
And I know you feel like dying
But I promise we’ll take the world to its feet
And move mountains
We’ll take it to its feet
And move mountains
And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
For you
For you
For you
For you
All we need, all we need is hope
And for that we have each other
And for that we have each other
We will rise
We will rise
We’ll rise, oh oh
We’ll rise
I’ll rise up
Rise like the day
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I will rise a thousands times again
And we’ll rise up
Rise like the waves
We’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
We’ll rise up
And we’ll do it a thousands times again
For you oh oh oh oh oh

Week 6 ~ 2017 Cement Falling Off In Boulders

We started the course learning the story of the Golden Buddha…… The legend of the town was that they covered their Golden Buddha with cement to prevent it from looking valuable and being stolen while at war. The Cement stayed on for several generations til everyone in the town forgot about its beauty and value.

Until one day a young student knelt at the Buddhas feet at prayer and noticed that part of the outer layer chipped off and a gleaming golden Buddha was underneath.

This brought the townspeople to the Buddha and they worked together to remove the cement to allow the beauty shine again.

Of course true or not…. it is a metaphor for our life and chipping away the old beliefs and fears aka the old blueprint…. to allow our truth and inner desire to come forth and shine as it is meant to.

The last 2 weeks I spent in Las Vegas. I did my readings most days. I attended 1 of the 2 class webinars live…. watching the 2nd one on replay.

So I did the work…. but not 100%.

Today….. I go to my 2nd personal training session since returning from Las Vegas and have this experience:

Kicking life up several notches. It’s the season to put in the work and do what others won’t so I can have what others don’t. Major realization today in my workout with my ever entrusted trainer…. how I think I’m doing my best and in reality was stopping just short of what I was really capable of. Interesting. In that moment of supersetting my arm workout with weights heavier than I have ever lifted.,. I was stopping short of the number of reps my trainer asked me to do. I was fearful of dropping the weights and injuring myself. Trainer says “I know you can do this. You got this” I allowed myself to ignore the fear and do it anyway. And I did it. With weights heavier and more reps than ever before. In that moment, someone else believed in me more that I believed in myself. And I went thru the fear anyway and found a new me in the other side. #stayfocused #believeyoucan #gothereanyways

I am finding this week that despite my less than 100% follow through on my daily readings….. cement is falling off in large chunks! My thoughts are even more focused and positive. I’m actually looking forward to my prospecting where just 2 weeks ago I was fearful, unsure, and avoiding.

But the biggest ah-ha was the one from the workout.

I can give so much more effort even when I think I am doing my 100%.

Time to kick it up several notches….. if I am experiencing results with this level of effort…. I AM REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THE RESULTS I WILL ACCOMPLISH WHEN I DO MY BEST.

Week 4 ~ 2017 Subby Always Listening & Following Directions :)


Just about one month ago… our 2017 Masterkeys Mastermind class was starting.

We started the 1st month with a reading from Og Mandino’s book The Greatest Salesman Scroll 1 for 30 days…. 3x/day. So we have read it 90 times.

There is a passage in Scroll 1 that is this:

The career I have chosen is laden with opportunity yet it is fraught with heartbreak and despair and the bodies of the those who have failed, were they piled one atop another, would cast a shadow down upon all the pyramids of the earth.

As I am reading this Scroll 1 during the 1st week, I am also making our arrangements for our trip to Las Vegas in October.

Here I am in Vegas….. my 1st morning of our 11 day vacation… I open the drapes and standing in front of the window I start my reading of Scroll 1.

I look out as I reading the above passage and see this:

I am standing in the shadow of the pyramid….. I unconsciously followed directions and made our reservations to stay at The Luxor!

ok ok ok……. that got me excited! And really fascinated….. not only about consciously manifesting, but also that I am subconsciously manifesting! I’ve got to be diligent in my thoughts and actions! Look at how deep this really goes!

ok ok ok… so I get really excited about this…. and drag my husband Jon out to do an impromptu photo shoot of my book, the pyramid… and me…

A passage just 1 paragraph beyond the one about the failure and pyramid is this one:

Failure no longer is my payment for struggle. Just as nature made no provision for my body to tolerate pain neither has it made any provision for my life to suffer failure. Failure, like pain, is alien to my life. In the past I accepted it as I accepted pain. Now I reject it and I am prepared for wisdom and principles which guides me out of the shadows into the sunlight of wealth, position, and happiness far beyond my most extravagant dreams until even the golden apples in the Garden of Hesperides seem no more than my just reward.

Here we are standing in the hot desert sun, in front of a pyramid taking photos of my happiness and delight… and I look down and see a shiny golden penny on the ground at my feet glistening to me.  ???


I think not.

A message?


“I am prepared for wisdom and principles which guides me out of the shadows into the sunlight of wealth, position, and happiness far beyond my most extravagant dreams until even the golden apples in the Garden of Hesperides seem no more than my just reward.”


Continue reading “Week 4 ~ 2017 Subby Always Listening & Following Directions :)”

Week 2 ~ 2017 Creating A New Blueprint

Week 2 has been a very interesting week for me.

This is round 2 of the Masterkeys Mastermind course for me… so I think I know what to expect.


What I did know is that this time around I wanted to achieve more EXACTING results. I fine tuned my definite major purpose (aka- DMP) from last year. I committed to many things in my DMP that I had included last year… and did not achieve. Yes, you read that right. I did not achieve some things that I wrote into my DMP last year.

These things I really wanted! AND I STILL DO.

Things like becoming an International Marketing Director in my network marketing company. Like speaking on stage at our corporate events. Like building a business of over 3000 reps and members.

Good stuff… I know I can do it.

But that part didn’t even come close in happening last year.

AND I did achieve the other half of my DMP…. like

By 12/31/17 or sooner: repaired and painted the exterior of our home, replaced the retaining wall, replaced every window of our home all of which has been paid for in full with cash from savings- 10/3/17 DONE

By 12/31/17 or sooner: excited that our savings is growing by an additional $10,000 and our bills are paid for in full- 10/3/17 DONE

By 12/31/17 or sooner: I am exercising every day in strength building with weights and taekwondo, my body is strong and healthy at 105#- 10/3/17 ON MY WAY… I am not 105# yet but I am working with a personal trainer 2x/ week in strength building, back in taekwondo 1-3x/wk, down 3# and body fat down 1.5% since starting my training in the last week of August.

What happened?

Why not achieve all my goals?


The things I did achieve happened because I buckled down and adjusted some habits…. the easy ones. The ones that already were somewhat comfortable to adjust.


Like prospecting. Like going out to purposefully talk to people about business. Like stretching myself uncomfortably to have a sales conversation instead of a coffee kletch conversation.

And I realized that the daily work of reading Og and Hannel, doing the reciting of my DMP and The Blueprint builder/ self confidence formula and reading them multiple times daily WITH ENTHUSIASM is DEFINITELY a key to success.

You see… I fell into an old habit again this week. Like the habit I developed last year doing this course.

I started out full guns…. doing the readings with enthusiasm the prescribed number of times per day….. then week 2 I slacked a couple times on Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday I forgot to do 2 readings. Thursday was just an off day. And Friday my brain kicked me in the rear end and I awoke this morning realizing my OLD BLUEPRINT SNEAKED RIGHT IN AND TOOK OVER.


I do see how this seemingly time consuming  petty habit of these readings WITH ENTHUSIASM are CRITICAL to my BIG SUCCESSES I say I want!!


Because that is the habit I developed LAST YEAR. And I see the results from last year……. and I didn’t achieve the BIG HAIRY AUDACIOUS GOALS in my business that I wanted EVEN MORE than the ones I actually achieved!


No more old blueprint. Bub- bye.

Week 1 ~ 2017 Master Keys Mastermind 2.0


Wow!! Hard to believe that it was a year ago that I first took this course. I remember the first week like it was yesterday….. SO EXCITED…. full of promise for a new way of life…. and feeling very disorganized and confused with all the new terms, new content, new ways of thinking, and new habits to create.

I was just LOST.

But… I kept hearing Mark’s words… “It’s just your old blueprint” and that exactly what I wanted to change.

Today…. half way through week one of my 2nd round of the course…. I am filled with excitement! Ok… and maybe alittle overwhelm…. but this time it is different.

The overwhelm this time is because I am VERY CLEAR about my definite major purpose I am putting into my new blueprint and specific old beliefs that will be released with new beliefs and habits to support my purpose. This year it is all about taking my network marketing business to the next level. THIS IS THE YEAR.

No longer do I accept mediocrity.

No longer do I tolerate less than my best.

I always keep my promises.

Og Mandino’s The Greatest Salesman In The World is one of the textbooks we study from. Each scroll is read 3x/ day for 30 days before proceeding to the next scroll.

Scroll one is about starting a new life. It is shedding of the old skin and creating new habits.

pg 56:

Thus a new and good habit is born, for when an act becomes easy through constant repetition it becomes a pleasure to perform and if it is a pleasure to perform it is man’s nature to perform it often. When I perform it often, it becomes a habit and I become its slave and since it is a good habit, this is my will.

Today, I begin a new life.

Synchronicity and Feelings of Inadequacy

I just love ❤️ the game of life and being aware of synchronicity that I know are always of purpose. Today in my “I AM” card picking 2 cards dropped from my deck. Both identical in design and color.. both with SPECIFIC messages I needed to be aware of today.

In a swarm of emotions yesterday my thoughts ranged from “Am I on the right track in my profession” “Do I have what it takes to make my goal and dreams become manifest” “can I go another day with this post chemo tiredness” “Am I doing the right thing”.

Woke up this am with all the answers immediately in my thoughts, knowing I AM on the right track, I HAVE what it takes, I DO have the energy…. and I pull these cards ♥️. So wonderful to have confirmation to know that my thoughts are real things… and when they come from the heart ❤️ and I listen… and follow my heart ❤️ truth always prevails.
#liveeachdaylikeitisyourlast #followyourcompass #thankyouMKMMA #thankyouMarkJ

Don’t 2nd Guess- Trust

Hahahaha!!!!!!!! What are the odds….

Yesterday I picked Laser Focused for my I AM card of the day…. TODAY….. after a day full of business building and an intense mastermind call…. I put yesterday’s card back into the pile… reshuffle it… and pick a new card.

AGAIN I picked Laser Focused! So of course I start laughing because YES I have been very Laser Focused today ?☺️☺️. So to humor my self I pick another card.,,. I AM HILARIOUS ? ???????❤️❤️❤️ GOT TO LOVE ❤️ THESE CARDS!! #neverdoubt #godhasasenseofhumor #IAM

After posting the above post on Facebook 2 days ago… the experience of that has rolled around in my thoughts. The whole thing took maybe less than a minute.

BUT it sealed an awareness into my conscious mind.

In the split second after I pulled the Laser Focused card again… my mind went to “yeah…. oops… thats a mistake….”

Which quickly moved to thats weird…. what a coincidence…. to hahaha… thats funny and its a message… all within fractions of a minute… as I pulled the second card…. I AM HILARIOUS!

The awarenesses are these:

  • why did I doubt/ 2nd guess the 1st card?
  • why did my mind automatically tag it as a mistake?
  • why did I feel compelled to draw a 2nd card… and in that thought was the assumption that the 2nd card would be THE RIGHT one…. the right message.
  • And really…. to take all experiences/ awarenesses/ messages as important and not to dismiss them.

One of the huge gifts I have received in this past year was to have a pay it forward scholarship granted to me by the 2015 class of The MasterKeys Mastermind led by Mark Januszewski. He calls himself The World’s Laziest Networker… but dont believe it. He has worked harder than most people I know to get where he is at and then to choose to dedicate his life helping people to understand and transform their inner mindset and inner talk to be supportive of the dreams people hold inside them.

So in this 8 month long mastermind class one of the skills we learn to develop is that of being the observer.

THIS IS CRITICAL!!! How can you even begin to change something if you are not aware of what happened.

So you see… the whole experience I had with my “I AM” cards the other day… starts with the gift of the skill learned of being an observer. I couldn’t have had ALL those learnings which have already created some changes in my life just in the past 2 days.

Like most of all:

  • listening to my gut instinct
  • following my gut instinct
  • trusting my gut instinct
  • living my truth
  • being able to laugh at myself

I am always a lifelong learner. I always am bettering myself and therefore have the tools and experience to share the knowledge and help others become who they are in their truth.

Heard this the other day:

a testimony is a story about YOUR TEST.

I no longer dread the hard times and frustrating experiences. $hit happens. And its there for a reason as a test to be a part of my testimony.

Thank you Mark J and the Fabulous Davene and all the MKMMA Guides and staff. I fricking LOVE you!



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I AM A Creative Genius

This morning I am sitting and thinking about how I might get my ideas of tattoo patterns in my head onto paper and in front of the @Juzo company to have made into compression sleeves.

I have worn a compression sleeve daily now for 9 months because of lymphedema due to breast cancer. I have bumbled and cried my way through cancer recovery because my body and appearance has changed so drastically in just one year. I feel very vulnerable and egocentric admitting to this but I will anyways as I always want to share the light just in case it might lift even one other person.

Putting on 25# in 12 months merely from lack of energy and sleeping most of 8 months or treatment… to losing all my hair… everywhere ?which made my face nearly recognizable to my self…. I sank deeply into low self confidence and depression.

Through recovery…. the consistent compliment I received was on my “cool henna tattoo”. Which actually was my Juzo compression sleeve. It made me feel great… and on many days… pulled me through a ton of negative emotions.

NOW…. I would like to convert my zentangle drawings which resemble henna tattoos into compression wear for cancer survivors. I have tried contacting @Juzo company which produce the best compression sleeves I have found… to no avail. They did respond to my 1st email with a statement that they don’t create special order garments… which this is not. I re wrote to them explaining what I want to do… and no response.

I’m not ready to give up that easy. I AM speaking, thinking, and visualizing this endeavor into my reality. Anyone have suggestions or contacts?

Oh BTW…. as I sit and contemplate this…. this is my beautiful “I AM” card I pull for today ?. Of course. I AM on the right track. #followyourcompass #liveeachdaylikeitisyourlast #justdoit

Week 24 – 2016 Freedom From The Pills

So this is the point at which I find myself after 24 weeks of masterminding with a group of like minded people from around the world. The Fabulous Davene and her husband Mark… mentors that I am very proud to say I have been studying with have used many tools in these last 7 months to help us learn to become self directed thinkers and working through the wall of goo in creating REAL transformation in our thoughts and behaviors and therefore our results.

Here is my earth shattering realization.

Beware…. I am baring my soul and being very vulnerable in sharing this. Please no judgements (I do that well enough on my own) and no haters, ok?

I have been on and off antidepressants for a long time in my life. Like 20+ years. When I’m on them, life is good. I am happy. People like me and like to be around me. I am pretty easy going. Stay pretty calm and nice.

But when I’m not on them…. yeah, well lets say that’s when I lose my friends. My family doesn’t want to be around me. And, I hate myself. I get very bossy, direct, and demanding.

I have learned through the years in all the self development things I have done that I really can have this be in my control. I can build new beliefs and make new habits of how I respond. For the last 10 years I’ve accomplished this pretty well. No meds needed. Friendships were made. Family liked me again.

Then the Big C happened last year. Yep cancer.

The depression began…. big time. Not only were the chemo drugs playing havoc on my body…. and the mental toll from the “come to Jesus” thoughts of mortality setting in… depression returned.

Antidepressant medication came back into my life and was added to the daily cocktail of drugs my body received.

That was June 2016.

This week, I came to a very personal decision to STOP the antidepressants. Yes… life is good. Friends are back. Family loves me again. And here I go deciding to stop the medication.

Even though the relationships with others and myself are going good, I don’t like being on the drugs. It’s the feeling of dependency I don’t like. It’s the (self imposed belief) that I should be able to be the “Master of my fate, the captain of my soul” and not NEED the drugs. Not to mention I am really DONE with the additional 45 pounds my body added from the drugs… and ready to release THAT TOO.

OK. So Tuesday this past week I woke up and said to myself… “This is the day. I’m done with the drugs. Time to REALLY be in control of my fate and soul.”

This past week has had more downs than ups. My husband is on board to help me through this… yet my family members do not know what is going on. Sometimes I’m sweet, sometimes I’m sour. BUT I am determined to use the skills I have learned and to create new habits to move me into the person I want to be…. the one that really is my soul and not the one that plays out of control and at effect.

One of the tools that Mark and Davene shared with us in another class they teach (Go90Grow) is The ColorCode Personality Test. Now I have done many personality tests through the years… and have gotten various amounts of insight into myself through them, but this one really is different. It is so much more thorough. It helps me to see my strengths and limitations and gives me so many ways to help grow my strengths and helps me to understand how I interact with other personality types.

Along with all the ways we have learned to create change through the mastermind this personality test was the extra secret sauce I am finding to give me the belief that I am making it through this…. I am finally breaking free from the antidepressants and taking control of the me I want to be…. The me I truly am at my best and blissful core. The one who loves myself and others…. and has a balanced, even temperment that allows me to be true to me.

Week 23 – 2016 Self Directed Thinker

I have come to the learning that all this work…. all this agony over additional time spent on homework, webinars, sitting in silence through my last 24+ weeks of The Master Keys Mastermind Experience with Mark and Davene has been one of the BEST investments in myself.

My list of changes is so long. New habits have been formed…. for the better. I am living my life at a level I have not experienced before…. acceptance, responsibility, and defenselessness are now touchstones to live every day.

Sitting in the silence to gain greater insight and experience the peace between thoughts.

Getting crystal clear on what I want out of life… and what kind of person I want to be instead of living a life that was handed to me through other people’s ideas that I unknowingly accepted as my truths.

I will remain on this path that has been carved as a self directed thinker and invite any others ready to invoke REAL change for themselves to join me.

This IS what I have been waiting for, for 50+ years.

Week 22 – 2016 62 Hours of Silent Meditation

This past March 1-3 I went into 2.5 days of silent meditation.

I stayed at my sister’s north woods home. I was the only one there and was set for the time with groceries.

As luck would have it, the first day it snowed. Not just snow… but blizzard type snow with winds around 50 mph from sunrise and through that night. Even though I dislike the snow and cold, I welcomed it with the anticipation of being alone and dedicated to no technology.

My companions were a couple of books, my journal, and my thoughts.

Here is my 62 hours of silence takeaways:


Believe in myself and trust myself

Release self doubt

Monitor my thoughts for the positive only…. always



Ok…. did it really take such a major experiment to have these realizations?

No. AND it was the silence between my thoughts that was the profound experience. When I was able to quiet my mind and stop the ego chatter of the monkey mind that was the golden part of this.

Time disappeared.

I could have stayed there longer.

Precious experience… I will make it a habit at least once a year and for longer than 2.5 days.


Week 21 – 2016 Fear As A Tool For Growth

Through the last several weeks of class and masterminding I have been contemplating what is it exactly that I feel I need to break through to reach my goals. And given the homework task of discovering ways to use guilt, fear, unworthiness, anger, and hurt as tools for growth I was doubly motivated to “figure this thing out” and finally breakthrough it!

I feel that up until now the reason I have had difficulty building my business and releasing the weight I would like has been due to fear…

As I stated in my last post… Week 20 – False Evidence Appearing Real the fears I run around constantly are: fear of what people think, fear of making a wrong decision, and the fear of talking to people.

Really distilling it down to one it can be described as the fear of being authentically me.

In this past week’s webinar Davene stated that at one point in her life she realized she was addicted to a certain feeling….. Hmmmmmmm….. I am addicted to fear.

Ok. Let’s do the run down of questions.

When I feel the fear… what am I feeling?

A gnawing at the pit of my stomach.

Inability to focus.

Desire to run from the task at hand.



So if these are the “effects” then I must change the cause. And we have learned that the cause of everything is thought.

So, What am I pretending not to know?

I am pretending that I am not a person that someone would want to be friends with. I am pretending that I don’t know how to do the task. I am pretending that someone won’t like me. I am pretending that they will yell at me for bothering them. I am pretending that I never follow through or become successful.

So I stop. I pull away. I quit. I don’t follow through. I find an excuse as to why I couldn’t.

What would the person who I intend to become, do next?

That person would believe that she has something of value and worthwhile for the other person to see and hear about. That person would separate the feeling of being liked from the business. That person would not even consider that she was bothering anybody. That person would stay committed and in action UNTIL success was reached.

This process gave me a very big awareness and insight of what I have been doing unconsciously that has been thwarting me and my success.

And because I AM A MIRACLE, and I believe that everything is a miracle…. I am choosing to believe that MY THOUGHT of that I have a problem called fear…. is the faulty thought giving me faulty results.

My new thought is I am a MIRACLE and I PERSIST until I SUCCEED.


  • Thorough and honest admitting of the addiction to an emotion that is not serving.
  • “I am addicted to the feelings of____________”
  • What am I feeling? Where in my body?
  • Change the cause…. The cause is the “thought” that is eliciting the feeling.
  • What am I pretending not to know?
  • What would the person I intend to become, do next?
  • Move on.



Week 20 – 2016 False Evidence Appearing Real

False Evidence Appearing Real……. FEAR

The question this week was how could we use guilt, fear, unworthiness, anger, and hurt as tools to grow.

I really connected with the fear part of this question. You see, that is where I have lived my entire life.

Fear of what people think. Fear of making a wrong decision. Fear of talking to people. Fear of being authentic and allowing myself to be vulnerable.

And yet I really want to be an “outgoing full of life and friends” type person!

It has been shown that we are born with 2 types of natural fear: The fear of loud sounds, and the fear of falling. Both very important aspects to be aware of from a survival standpoint…. and all other fears are learned.

So- how can I use this word…. emotion…. as a tool for learning?

I struggle with 2 major issues that I want to master yet in my life. I am going to allow myself to be vulnerable here…. because I am already feeling the judgement part of me becoming afraid of what you will think about this.

I struggle with releasing weight. And I struggle with earning money.

Some how in my deep dark recesses of my thoughts I have an intuitive knowing that they are connected. And so I took these thoughts with the intention of becoming aware of how to use it as a tool into my daily sit exercise and to see what came up.

I recognized in the first day that both are connected with fear. Fear of judgement, fear of not enough. I wanted to go down the path of trying to discover what it was in life that I developed those beliefs… only to realize on the 2nd day that that path was a dead end of spent energy for really no benefit. What I really wanted was to become the person I know I truly am and to reach the things in life that I want to achieve. Yes, I am pretty much happy already…. BUT I know i am not being the full potential of WHO I am, and that is what I want.

I realized through my sits that the fear was still present through out because I never really dealt with the things that would cause me to break through…. Like allowing vulnerability, like being impenetrable to people’s opinions…. like truly knowing that there is always enough…. Like knowing I AM ENOUGH.

There is a statement in the above video that I just love….

Behind every fear is the person you want to be.

I want to be who I want to be, and since fear is made up…. I am no longer willing to allow it to control my destiny.

I can have fear…. and fear will NOT have me.

Week 19 – 2016 Cause vs. Effect

This week in Haanel’s The Master Key System Part 19 has a very profound (and they are all really profound) statement that was a thought I reflected on much this week:

19-2 In seeking truth we are seeking ultimate cause; we know that every human experience is an effect; then if we may ascertain the cause, and if we shall find that this cause is one which we can consciously control, the effect or the experience will be within our control also.

Phew…. you mean I can change just about anything in my control, based on my thought about it??



Woahhhhh…. happy, scared, happy, scared, happy, scared………………….


ok…… happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, happy………………………………………….


Week 18 – 2016 The Abyss

Our week has been spent studying the Hero’s Journey. Basically going from where you are to accepting the call of your dream…. your vision… and taking conscious steps towards it.

And yet this journey is not always a hop skip and jump in a day because you decided to say “yes” to your vision.

Knowing that the journey may be longer than I expect… or shorter.

Understanding that there will be challenges and temptations along the path and mentors and helpers along the way to guide and teach.

And just before that time of transformation is when the lowest point happens. “it is most dark just before the light” moment. The “it gets worse before it gets better” moment.

This is called The Abyss…. a time of death of the old, and rebirth into the new.

That was my Saturday Jan 21, 2016.

Now, I am learning that life and the universe sometimes works in strange ways. Like… it’s easier to connect the dots of understanding situations when looking back on them then in the moment.

My vision is really to be a successful business owner… and really helping others to achieve their level of success in business. My business of choice is a direct network company in travel. I LOVE to travel! I want to help others have fun and earn money while on vacation too! Soooooooo…….

Here I am in San Francisco that weekend attending a photography class taught by a mentor of mine. I’ve been in the photography business for 36 years with my husband and it really isn’t my passion… I mean it is, but isn’t. I like to create beautiful images of people, but I LOVE to travel.

So it only made sense 2 years ago when I happen to come across a lady based in San Francisco who traveles the world spending weeks and months in Europe, Italy, Mexico photographing her clients for their business branding. OOOOOOOO!!!! OK….. maybe this is for me! I can combine my photography and my direct network company. I went out to study with her….

This past Jan she had an advanced class, so of course I went back. Part of the class was to have a client that we did a photo session with.

My client and I were in Yerba Beuna Park in downtown San Fran. We were walking from one location to the next… we were about 1/2 way done with her session. I had already captured many amazing and beautiful images of this beautiful woman that she was planning to use in her career as the director of human resources at the company she worked for.

It was mid afternoon as we walked and chatted to the next spot in the park. Out of nowhere I was body slammed by a tall young man. He grabbed my camera out of my hands. But to HIS surprise the camera was attached to my body by a cross body harness I always wear while in sessions.

My instinct was to grab my camera and wrestle it back. Of course this person was so much larger than me it was a no brainer as who was going to win the camera.

We wrestled for a bit and in the process the camera hit me in the face, splitting open my eyebrow and scratching my glasses.

My senses finally kicked in and I let go of the camera and in the process was pulled to the ground… face planting onto the cement.

He got away. Camera, lens, and all the images I had done of my client.

Here is my surprise.

In the past in a situation such as this, I would have freaked out…. start crying, and become helpless.

That didn’t happen.

I kept my cool. I consoled my client. I gave a very objective and unemotional statement to the police and emergency medical people.Later, I found out that a witness saw that he had a gun. And no, I was not in shock. I actually had my wits about me and was thinking very clearly.

It was nearly eight hours later after an ambulance ride and an emergency room visit to glue my eyebrow shut that I got back to my hotel.

I was all alone. I traveled to San Fran without my husband. My room was very lonely. I was tired and sore. My eyebrow and head were throbbing. Thank God the nurse gave me two Tylenol before I left because I didn’t pack any.

The next morning I was up and feeling good. My body was sore, and my eye almost swollen shut… but I was happy and excited for day 3 of our class. As I walked the half mile down Market Street to the Flood Building where the class was held…. my mind kept reciting…. “I greet this day with love in my heart”.

I got to class and my classmates were amazed that I was there. They thought surely I would be too mentally disraught to come.

I wasn’t. Matter of fact if I didn’t have the sore eyebrow…. I would have been hard pressed to have felt that anything like a mugging even happened to me.

Now…. clearly this wasn’t a transformation to my “dream life” or my “vision”. Nothing on the Sunday following was much different about my life. And yet there was.

I realized I stepped through the need to have drama. I realized I took charge instead of falling apart helplessly.

In something that could have been so tragic… it was just another experience. And I learned that drama is a waste of energy. I actually learned alot about myself and proved to myself unintentionally that I can take care of myself and be ok. I can take responsibility and make something happen… even in the midst of violence and theft.

I did have a transformation as I see it now… 3 weeks later. I gained a real sense of independence and taking responsibility for myself which I really need in my new endeavor of network marketing.



Week 17 HJ – 2016 Answering the Call

I am so ready to allow myself to answer my hero’s journey and transcend the years of confusion and stuckness I have experienced in my personal and business life. It has been exhausting and all consuming and CONFUSING!!!

Until now.

Learning the Hero’s Journey cycle gave me understanding and HOPE to what I have been stuck in for years.

And yet the fear is very real. I want to know who I am to be. I want it to happen fast… get it done.

And this transformation requires me to do that which I fear… to talk with people about my business.

It seems silly to even write that last sentence out… because that is really what I want… to grow my business.

i accept the call…. ?

Week 17 – 2016 Time Is Flying Part 2

This week…. I have found that in keeping my focus time continues to move quickly. Again, people, items, thoughts, ideas, seem to magically be there right as I need them.

I truly believe I have moved from a conscious and calculated way of living my life to a heart centered way of life and everything flows.

This doesn’t take much practice any more. The “bear hugs kettle” reminder to flip my thoughts really isn’t being called upon much any more. I am smiling all the time.

And I love it.

I am finding what is present in my thoughts without conscious choice is Scroll #2…

I greet this day with love in my heart.

Life is good.

Week 16 – 2016 Time Is Flying Part 1

Yes, I am writing this blog post a week late. And yes, I am splitting it up into 2 blog posts to be able to meet my weekly promise to make a blog entry every week during my MKMMA experience.

I own up to it.

Yet, the 2 blogs, even on the same topic have 2 different focuses and observations.

Last week (week 16) it was amazing how fast the week flew by. I did my daily readings, my cards, my sit exercise all pretty much on automatic. It is a habit now. And the rest of the days just disappeared… like super focused and time just melted away. Things I need and people I want to connect with are coming to me at hyper speed. Decisions are being made quickly and amazingly accurate. I am living from my compass and life is flowing in the direction I want!! It is awe-inspiring!

And a bit scarey… can I keep my focus on track even longer to keep moving forward? I will say “yes” and just know I can.

Week 15 – 2016 Admission of Guilty

Yep….. I admit it. I feel just like the dog sitting with her head down and big puppy eyes straining to look lovingly into her masters face.

I had a week from He** and not going to deny it… I fell off the wagon of all my promises to myself of doing my readings, writing my gratitudes, and staying true to my commitment of MKMMA.

No good reason. I was in a funk. I could tell you about the health issues that were present this week…. but won’t. I could describe in detail all the things I allowed myself to eat… but won’t. I could complain how sucky the week was…. but won’t.

I allowed myself to be angry and think negative. I allowed myself to be disappointed with myself. I thought about alot of stuff that I know better to not think about.

I didn’t do the work that I have been learning, practicing and embodying for the last 4 months.

And my week sucked big time.

And yet, I am kinda glad it happened.

The Master Keys by Haanel in part 15-29 thru 34 states:

29. In the physical world there is a law of compensation which is that “the appearance of a given amount of energy anywhere means the disappearance of the same amount somewhere else,” and so we find that we can get only what we give; if we pledge ourselves to a certain action we must be prepared to assume the responsibility for the development of that action. The subconscious cannot reason. It takes us at our word; we have asked for something; we are now to receive it; we have made our bed, we are now to lie in it; the die has been cast; the threads will carry out the pattern we have made.

30. For this reason Insight must be exercised so that the thought which we entertain contains no mental, moral or physical germ which we do not wish objectified in our lives.

31. Insight is a faculty of the mind whereby we are enabled to examine facts and conditions at long range, a kind of human telescope; it enables us to understand the difficulties, as well as the possibilities, in any undertaking.

32. Insight enables us to be prepared for the obstacles which we shall meet; we can therefore overcome them before they have any opportunity of causing difficulty.

33. Insight enables us to plan to advantage and turn our thought and attention in the right direction, instead of into channels which can yield no possible return.

34. Insight is therefore absolutely essential for the development of any great achievement, but with it we may enter, explore and possess any mental field.

This was a perfect part of the reading that helped me to understand the need to stay true to my promise to myself to stay with the MKMMA lessons and my new habits…. and also to the benefit of a down week like last week and the learnings that are possible.

My desire and promise to to stay on course with my new habits and new me.


Week 14 – 2016 Lessons In Movies

October Sky is a very compelling true story about a boy’s interest in building rockets after seeing the Sputnick travel across the sky in October of 1957.

He meets what seems to be insurmountable odds against him as he rallies his friends and even the community nerd to help him build and fire off rockets. They had very little access to “rocket building information” as this was still a very new technology and NO internet to google for information!

Yet, he succeeds in building several and goes on to win a science contest and later earns a scholarship to college.

My learnings from this movie were several. First I was profoundly moved by his single focused objective…. to build a rocket that flies. And he didn’t let anything get in his way of doing it. PERSISTENCE was the key. Persistence and a DEFINITE MAJOR PURPOSE. Also, he needed to stay positive in his thoughts always….. and to keep enthusiastic about his mission… especially in enlisting help from his friends. All this despite the odds against him = SUCCESS.

The second movie I watched was “Wild”. Again, based on a true story. I appreciate movies based on true stories as it seems the messages are more profound as I can really take it in and KNOW that someone accomplished… or went through and made it.

Cheryl Strayed trekked the Pacific Trail in 2012 after coming to a point in her life where she was painfully aware of needing to change her ways. Clearly she was on a path of self destruction. She woke up finally to know that this was the last straw…. change needed to happen now and SHE needed to change.

I am especially excited about the movie as I have had my own “Come to Jesus” moments of needing to change several times during my life. about 15 years ago…. it was about changing my domineering bull personality to one of kindness and love. This year…. it is about changing my financial situation and profession.

What I learned from this movie is to stay the course…. persistence again…. to keep going until you arrive into the light that you are seeking. Even if the outcome is not quite as crystal clear as it should be…. to STAY IN MOTION and keep going. And to love yourself through it.

2 excellent choices that go hand in hand with all that I am learning in the Master Keys Mastermind….  Thank you Mark and Davene!!



Week 13 – 2016 Just Do It

Nike’s most famous quote. Sounds so easy. Just Do It. But up til now, not so easy for me in building my business. Too many head stories that kept me in inaction.

This past week was one of a lot of self reflection and contemplation of the realization that NOW is the time to take 100% action towards my desire.

Haanels Master Key System part 13-22 states:

In the first place, we must put our knowledge into practice. Nothing can be accomplished in any other way. The athlete may read books and lessons on physical training all his life, but unless he begins to give out strength by actual work he will never receive any strength; he will eventually get exactly what he gives; but he will have to give it first.

So there it is. I must reset my focus to doing. Taking action. Getting it done. Doing the work. Doing what it takes.

Now I’m ok with it. With taking action. I’m not sure why it took me a couple of years to get to this point… maybe confidence. Maybe I wasn’t ready to fully commit. Not sure… but I do know I am ready to do the work… take action, and move forward in my business.


Week 12 – 2016 Who Is This Person?


Who is this person? I once knew how she would respond to frustration… with anger. Or how she would procrastinate and let life pile up. I remember how unfocused she was in her search and chase for the new shiney idea or project.

Today I know a very focused person. I see someone with absolute clarity of what she wants and taking steps to making it happen.

She is happy, joking, and not having the need to be a control freak.

She finds the higher good in all that happens.

She is forgiving.

She loves herself and others.

She has patience.

She has her spark for life once again.

And I’m so glad it’s ME.

Thankyou MKMMA!

Week 11 – 2016 Eagles Don’t Fly

This is my weekend of servant leadership as I crew our team retreat in Lake Las Vegas. We have early mornings and late evenings… and being on crew means we are there in the room an hour before the participants, and when the participants call it a night, we go off to prepare the items for the next day. Our objective… to fully support the participants and speakers so they have an amazing event.

The topic… leadership. But it’s not just about our businesses… it is really about the relationship we have with others and especially with ourselves.

So I brought all my readings and notecards, and am making the time to stay present with my promises to MKMMA.

Everywhere I see examples of the 7 Laws. I am becoming more and more aware of the Law Of Attraction. I am especially seeing this in interaction between participants at our retreat… subtle nuances like the outgoing and vocal people hang out and choose partners that are of like personality. Same with the timid and more quiet ones… they hang together.

A topic that was discussed at great length was how our beliefs from childhood affects our adult performance.

The speaker made a simple statement that seemed to be almost dismissed but hit me square between my eyes.

Eagles don’t fly, they just DO.

I really thought about that simple statement for quite a while. I rolled around in my mind all the excuses I seem to have in my mind that make total sense to me as to why I don’t go out and DO what it takes to make my business grow the way I want it to. All the beliefs, fears, and insecurities… all the thought power expended in trying to figure it out and “heal” the mind game. All to no avail.

What if I simply just DO instead of THINK.

After all, I really want to be the eagle and fly…..

Week 9 – 2016 Frustrated



Last week Haanel’s sit exercise had us visualizing starting at an end result and working backwards to its’ inception. I found this to be easy and then applied it to my goal and had a relatively easy time with it.

This week’s sit is reversing the process and starting at the beginning and visualizing to completion. He has us start with our favorite flower…. to take its seed and plant it. Care for it and see the roots growing, a new stem emerging, and eventually blossoming into a flower.

Again, I tried applying it to my goal. In this direction, I found it to be much more difficult to visualize. I would get stuck at the same point every time. Coincidentally (or maybe not), it is the point at which I get stuck in real life.

The more “sits” I would do in applying Haanel’s exercise to my goal, the more frustrated I became…. and realized that I am actually training my subconscious backwards to resist this point. It even caused me at times to question my decision of working a network marketing business. Doubt has reared its ugly head and in moments of clarity I see that this spot I get to and resist is really my big nut to crack to be able to move forward TO my goal.

I must keep my clarity and remain open to the process and possibly get feedback from someone who is already past that point to help me see what I am not yet seeing.

I will keep my promises to do the work and continue forward as I am driven to break through this!

Week 8 – 2016 I think I’m getting better at this!


Visualization, imagination, future self, goals, mindest, self talk, and all the buzz words of the self help industry have been a standard in my life for the past 16 years.

In 2000 I attended my first of many Anthony Robbins seminars which opened the proverbial rabbit hole of personal development for me. Then came neurolinguistic programming and the law of attraction with Esther Hicks. With each era many new learnings took me that much farther down the hole into understanding who I am and how I create my experiences.

This past week though, I had a very big ah-ha that through all my past learnings, I never realized.

If I do not see my future self as me…. I cannot imagine my accomplishment of a goal.

Let me give a bit of background around this thought.

In 7-10 of Master Keys, Haanel goes on telling the story of Nikola Tesla and his method of visualizing his inventions before attempting to work them out.

Having first built up the idea in his imagination, he holds it there as a mental picture, to be reconstructed and improved by his thought. ‘In this way’, he writes in the Electrical Experimenter. ‘I am enabled to rapidly develop and perfect a conception without touching anything. When I have gone so far as to embody in the invention every possible improvement I can think of, and see no fault anywhere, I put into concrete, the product of my brain. Invariably my device works as I conceived it should; in twenty years there has not been a single exception’

Understanding the huge influence Tesla has had on our understanding of the law of vibration and electricity, I took this paragraph as being very instrumental in being dedicated to visualization of MY inventions… my goals. And realizing just how PRECISE I need to be in all aspects of what I want to accomplish.

So I set off last week with a great week of visualization and getting even clearer on my desired goals.

In comes week 8 and the discussion of our future selves. Mark spoke to the awareness that we need to see our future self as our friend not as a faceless stranger…. after all are we more likely to go out of our way and help a good friend or stranger?

This is where my thoughts begin to take a sharp turn on overload.

In 8-11 of the Master Keys Haanel states that “imagination is the constructive form of thought which MUST precede every constructive form of action”.

Now, I REALLY want to achieve my goals I claimed at the beginning of this mastermind…. No…. I MUST achieve them. For I have lived way too many years of my life doing things for other people that did not interest me or excite me. I refuse to die without living the life I know I am meant to experience.

When I read 8-15, I knew this was a key learning:

Constructive imagination means mental labor, by some considered to be the hardest kind of labor, but, if so, it yields the greatest returns, for all the great things in life have come to men and women who had the capacity to think, to imagine, and to make their dreams come true.

In my usual visualization of my goals on Monday and Tuesday, I realized that I was having a very difficult time mentally seeing my future self in my visualizations. If at all, it was represented as a shadowy figure with no descriptive features that would even suggest that it might be me.

Then on Wednesday, right after I did the “sit” exercise of mentally visualizing an object and imagining the creation of it backwards in time…. going from a battleship to the raw metal in the foundries being forged into the ship, to the architect designing the ship, to the discovery of how large objects float in water…. etc, I did this with my goal.

I figured if I can do this with an object, why not with my goal and maybe receive some insight into what else I may need to think of or do to accomplish it.

So as I sat and visualized my goal… working on getting even that much more clear on details… I started at the endpoint… The actual accomplishment. Then I worked my way backwards to present day…. visualizing what I knew already that I would need to do along the way, and using my imagination to fill in the gaps…. I came to present day.


As I visualized my already accomplished goal… I saw myself as I was a year ago. Pre cancer, pre chemo. I was 20# lighter (yay) and had long beautiful brown hair (double yay).

BUT…. THAT IS NOT WHO I AM TODAY. That past person is basically a stranger to me. Someone I once knew but am very different from today.

It took me YEARS to grow my hair that long.

It took me months to put on weight.

It took weeks for me to lose my hair.

I don’t want to wait years subconsciously because my hair might need to grow long again before I accomplish my goal.

I don’t want to “try to lose weight” before allowing my goal to come into being.

I need to see my future self as me as I am. The me I know now.

Maybe this is what is referred to as time traveling…. I have had many cool conversations in my head about this awareness this week…. and somehow trying to explain the profound awareness of all of this has fallen flat and seems woo-woo and out there. Yet I KNOW this is very important for me. To be able to see ME in accomplishment of my goal and not some fuzzy dark nondescrip image achieving my goal.


Week 7 – 2016 Practice, Practice, Practice

I feel a lot like the video posted this week! I laughed so hard as I watched it for the 2nd and 3rd time! And wished I could be a fly on my own wall to watch myself go through all the readings and sit this week.

This week feels like the week of pulling it all together for me. Finally alot of the exercises are just making sense. Not sure what the magic moment was, but definitely understand now what Mark means by all this being cumulative.

Actually I’m also feeling quite peaceful and patient. And as the week goes on, it is much easier to stay in the flow of positivity. My family has joined me on the mental diet and we are seeing some amazing results from this combined effort.

Feeling like this is a short blog post as I still am assimilating all the cool feelings and new awarenesses of the week.

Peace out!

Week 6 – 2016 The Power of Focus


This past week has been an eye opening week for me. I think it is pretty safe to say that most everyone agrees that multitasking is not as productive as it seems to be.

All my adult life as long as I remember I have multitasked everything all the time. I figured it was my Aries nature. Always in a hurry with too much to do, what other option is there than to do 1-2-3 things at a time?

The topic came up at our tribe call before our weekly webinar last Sunday and I committed to go the week without multitasking and report back to my mentor as to how it went.

It didn’t. Yet I was very aware of when I was doing it and the results were less than preferred. I discovered that although I felt that I was accomplishing more while multitasking… It actually took me longer to complete tasks. I also realized that I was irritable and easily distracted during those times.

And when I made the effort to be singly focused on one task at a time…. I got it done quicker with less stress and irritability.

During the reading this week of Part 6 in the Master Key System by Haanel I resonated with these sections:

19. Attention or concentration is probably the most important essential in the development of mind culture. The possibilities of attention when properly directed are so startling that they would hardly appear credible to the uninitiated. The cultivation of attention is the distinguishing characteristic of every successful man or woman, and is the very highest personal accomplishment which can be acquired.

So then I realized that I spent my entire adult life multitasking everything… To the great dismay of not specializing or accomplishing anything great in any one area. I always had lots of projects, interests, even jobs. Always busy… But not really moving forward greatly in any one area of my life. At least not like how I wished.

21. So with the power of thought; let power be dissipated by scattering the thought from one object to another, and no result is apparent; but focus this power through attention or concentration on any single purpose for any length of time and nothing becomes impossible.

By dissipating my focus onto many things at one time I actually was sending the success cycle into reverse…. It is no wonder that I did not accomplish e great things I wanted to accomplish… I truly believed to be successful was to be busy busy busy with multiple things and projects at the same time!

Now I see the error of my belief! To be focused on one task… One project… One thing at a time actually gives the time spent on it more energy to move it forward.

I am now committing to be singly focused and present when I do a task. Whether it is housework, cleaning, work, or hobby… Even spending time with my family and husband… To be completely present and focused…. Not only will I have better results… My family and husband will appreciate my undivided attention I know!



Week 5 – 2016 Tomorrow Is Not Promised

Oh yes… I have been one of those people for LOTS of years of my life. I get all excited towards November of each year with the hopes and dreams of all the goals and changes I want to accomplish in the new year. With November 1st being less than a week away, I already feel the excitement of getting out the old magazines and glue sticks… and to put a day on the calendar to redo my vision board and swear to myself that THIS TIME, THIS NEXT YEAR will be the year of profound change to the life I truly desire.

Yep. How’s that working for ya Wendy?

In reality… it’s worked ok. Kinda lukewarm. But still I get some results. But not the PROFOUND results I secretly hope for.

I stumbled upon a thought last night. I’m sure I have had it many times before, yet it registered in my awareness differently this time.

I was reading my nightly reading of The Greatest Salesman In The World by Og Mandino… Scroll One:

Today I begin a new life.

And I make a solemn oath to myself that nothing will retard my new life’s growth. I will lose not a day from these readings for that day cannot be retrieved nor can I substitute another for it. I must not, I will not, break this habit of daily reading from these scrolls and, in truth, the few moments spent each day on this new habit are but a small price to pay for the happiness and success that will be mine.

What I was struck with was the realization that I had formed the habit of depending on tomorrow. Putting things off until…. it was comfortable to do, or I knew “how to do it”, or until I felt like it.

It didn’t make sense. I SAID I wanted it. Really desired it. So much so that I made a super sized vision board encompassing everything I wanted to be, do, and have. I looked at it daily. Matter of fact for the 8 months I went through cancer treatments this year, I would spend most of my time laying in bed so tired from chemo and radiation…. and when I didn’t sleep I focused on these boards.

But last night these words that Og Mandino stirred my innards differently. I can’t put off and wait till tomorrow anymore. I was given a gift of new life this year. I am still alive but with no promise that tomorrow comes. And isn’t it really true for everyone no matter what their health condition is like?

This missing piece from my vision boards was the sense of urgency. The “I really get it now” sudden moment of realization. What the heck I was waiting for all those years?

Doesn’t matter. I am now committed to stepping up my game. Like last week.. 100% but now the urgency has kicked in and it has kicked the game up.



Week 4 – 2016 100 Percent

In our weekly online class last Sunday, Mark made a statement that was a pivotal moment of realization for me.

He was telling us about his discovery in a moment of time during his life where he realized that he did not give 100% effort to the things he did. It was 70-80%

Just this one thought has stuck through me all week. Am I giving my 100%?

He said that this week would be a determining week for a lot of us in the class. Many of us would decide that giving 100% would be too hard and time consuming… thereby making a decision to let go of attending the class.

Mark also said that some of us would realize that we needed to up the ante and decide to play full out and give our 100% to stay in the class and even make more effort to our weekly readings and homework.

I went through this week with a continuous conscious thought in everything I was doing… “am I doing this (thing) with 100% of my effort?”

Many times it was a “no” followed with a surge or renewed desire to do better… and doing it. Sometimes it was the realization that I was not motivated to do something at 100% and wondering why the motivation was not present to do better.

I think the real gift in the exercise of this week for me was the conscious awareness of my effort vs lack of effort in all I did. Surprisingly, I found that there were many things I did not give my 100% and for no apparent reason.

In Haanel’s book “The Master Key System” part 4-9 reads:

If you cannot do these things it is because you have thus far not made the necessary effort. Now is the time to make the effort. The result will be exactly in proportion to the effort expended. One of the strongest affirmations which you can use for the purpose of strengthening the will and realizing your power to accomplish, is, “I can be what I will to be”.

I really want to change my life to the one I dream of living. I have wanted and tried for this change for alot of years. Time to stop trying and start doing 100%

Week 3 – 2016 Parent Teacher Conference


It must have been 4th grade…. or maybe 5th. You know that age where kids still listen to their parents and teachers with absolute respect and fear? And do as they are told?

I remember sitting next to my mom in the classroom with my teacher. It was early evening hours and it was parent teacher conference time. Somebody thought it was a good idea to have the young student present at the meeting to sit as if invisible while 2 of the most respected people talk about them.

Somehow my dad was absent from this meeting… it was clearly my mom’s job to make sure I was a good student and following all the rules. Deep down inside I was secretly grateful he wasn’t there… he was the Enforcer of Discipline.

I hated school by that point. Too much sitting… not enough coloring and art… and I didn’t have the social skills to make friends. I’d rather be out playing or making art.

My memory of that meeting is very blurry but the words are burned into my psyche that to this day hurt… “Doesn’t apply herself”… “Doesn’t follow through”… “Doesn’t work to her potential”… “Never finishes anything”… “Could be better at making friends”.

Who’s idea was it that it would be a good idea for the student to be present for this?

So this week… working on my homework for my mastermind requirements I notice some very familiar patterns rearing their ugly heads.

Like- not following through on the required reading every day, not pushing myself to do the work like I say I want to, not finishing the requirements until the Very. Last. Moment.

But what really sealed the deal… icing on the cake… nail in the coffin… was when Mark confessed on the webinar that at one point he realized that he was defiant… NOT doing something just because. Needing to be different.


In my quest to be me, somehow I linked the need to be defiant with being different. In my quest to stand out… to be SOMEBODY… important… unique… I needed to be defiant.

And here I am… near retirement age, and still wondering when I get to live my life. When do I get to be ME and be successful. And just now realizing that to learn from successful people means I need to follow what they did… what they think… instead of my old blueprint that was given to me by a (probably well meaning) teacher.

Wow… the impact of words. The importance of choosing words to empower. The grace of choosing words of encouragement. Especially when talking to yourself.

Week 2 – 2016 I Have a Dream….

Wow…. its been a full year already for me. Cancer treatments have filled my 1st 9 months of this year and now my father passed away this past week.
I have spent alot of time reflecting on my 57 years on earth so far. I have reached a critical tipping point of tolerating a life that I’m living that is not my dream life.
It really makes me wonder why we are so conditioned by society… our parents, well meaning family and friends… that our dream life is exactly that…. a dream.
How dare we believe that our dream is not possible to achieve. Or that our dream is insignificant, or frivolous. Didn’t God put that dream in our heart?
My dream is to travel the world…. see beauty…. experience the wonderful diversity of history and culture…. And I also have a dream to become financially independent and to teach others. Especially to teach women… so they have the confidence to be financially independent on their own.
I have joined an amazing mastermind group that focuses on helping people make their dreams happen. And I am so thankful to have found this group as I don’t know how many more years of my life I could live living a lie… of not following my dream that is in my heart…. given to me by God.
This past week has had such an impact on me in the real awakening of my old blueprint of how I have been living my life. One that my parents and society and school helped to create for me…. BUT its not the one in my heart.
Every time I find myself doing or saying or thinking something from my old blueprint… I find a new power in recognizing that it is my old blueprint and choose a new blueprint that is in alignment with MY dream. True power….
Now to move forward and to let go of the old blueprint and define the new…. grab on and hold tight as I know life is quickly changing…. in the direction I WANT.

Week 1 – 2016 Oh Boy, What did I get into?


I’ve been a personal development junkie ever since my first Tony Robbins seminar in 2000. That opened the rabbit hole and I willingly jumped in with both feet and never looked back.

Just when you think you’ve hit a level of growth in understanding yourself, life, relationships, there is a new level found. And for the true junkie… this is like shooting personal development mainline into the brain.

So naturally when I started Mark Januszewski’s Go 90 Grow Program earlier this spring and heard about the Mastermind program…. it was a no brainer…. Yay! I get another hit of my drug of choice.

Got my app in on time. Bought all the materials requested. Set up my blog, and social media links as required. OOOOHHHHH SO EXCITED!

I have been in the same industry of photography for 35 years… seen alot of changes in it. Some great, some not so great. All in all…. My husband and I (we are business partners) realized this year that we are just tired and ready for a change in profession. Something we can make more money that what we have been in the last 10 years…. and something that we really really enjoy. Mind you not that we don’t enjoy the photography…. just ready for that new change.

We decided on a network marketing company because we really believe in the business model. After being in a traditional business for 35 years… with rent for a storefront, 7 employees, and overhead large enough to kill a small horse, we are ready to do away with all that. No more inventory. No more employees.

So…. seems like change comes in waves. And when it comes, it comes big. No sooner did we make our decision to build our network marketing company, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Another change to deal with. This was back in March of this year, and at the time, the prognosis was maybe 80% with a long road of chemotherapy, surgery and radiation.

This setback caused us (me specifically) to come to a halt in building the business. I became very sick with the chemo. I was unable to focus and spent most of my days in bed sleeping.

I needed to let go of the urgency and desire to build my business fast. I needed to give my body the time and love to heal. I let go of attending the Go 90 Grow webinars and homework as I couldn’t keep up with it all. But it was one of the best choices as again, this gave me a huge personal development learning. It allowed me to become more accepting of myself. More gentle and tolerant. More loving and accepting of others. HUGE.

August 19, 2016 I had surgery. I was pronounced 100% in remission! NO CANCER!

I learned the power of my thoughts through this journey…. I had a mantra I said all the time through chemotherapy…. and in the shower every morning… and whenever else during the day it struck me…

“I am so happy and grateful in how quickly my body heals all on its own.”

I BELIEVE this is why I am cancer free….. healthy.

So… back to Master Keys Masterminding…. when I got the email announcement saying that applications were being taken for the fall group… I KNEW it was the right thing and the right timing to do.

I intend to have this experience help me with the push back into my business building and to also help me to release the extra weight that I accumulated during my journey with cancer.

My excitement can hardly be contained and am so happy to have a new focus on my next journey in life of building my business, learning how to build a team, and also to give back to my fellow classmates where I can. 35 years of being a successful business owner, happily married…. I’m sure I have experience that will benefit some others in our group.

YAY! So happy to be a part of this new, next journey! Thank you Mark and the Fabulous Davene and Team!